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about a years ago in january i started geting sick in the mornings . i thought nothing of it i though it was withdralls …
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lovewins 
10:33am, November 15, 2009
new year in gear
i feel the pressure
is in mind
time to let all out tonite
i was feelin a bit down
then i looked inside
i felt blind inside
i felt weak cuz i had an illness
why did i feel such BS
i am on DS
gettin all this help
yet i feel i have shit to prove to whom
my mind is fragile like a woman's womb
in need of love i talk to mom
then i ask god why am i lettin on
thoughts of despair
found out i needed to do more self care
i need not be ashamed of my bipolar self
somewhere someone fucked me over and it hurt my health
so far i made it
in january about to be graduatin
do not want to bring these mothafuckin baggages
to my new school
cuz my defenses are up cuz i feel damaged
hurt and i hate even seein an eye lookin at me
cuz i feel weird
but the case is i am not used to feelin love
i lived for years in fear
felt the world was unsafe
i still feel the world is insane
loneliness is a scare that leaves me with a heartache
i feel better writin these rhymes
cuz it is hard to confide
so i hide my emotions
til i see DS in the nite
oh my oh my
the pain strife is like a knife
i feel the blood on my veins pumpin anxious clots
i pray to god to stop
the bullshit that hurts me inside
i feel so alone
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REALLY NICE POE LOVE IT
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brutally honest.i like you you say what you mean and you mean what you say ...Sign of a very intelligent man who is using his brain and thinking with his heart.
Keep writing it helps to overcome our pain and helps to deal with our problems.
KamHeather
The end of a year - a new life beckons for you. You're strong and you will make it into your living dream.
Kindmirrow
this is beautifully written
DreamsCanComeTrue1
Wow, you made me cry. How powerful! I feel the same way. The pain is so intense. Will it ever go away? Please stay safe, you are in my thoughts.....
girlpowerrocks
I feel your pain, hang in there I am always told to take one minute at a time, and if I dont like that minute I never have to relive it, only if I want to and torture my self.
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I hope someday you don't feel the fear. ***HUGS*** Take care and blessings. You are not your illness.
Ellocin
That's very inspiring Sidney. You're a strong guy and I know you'll make it if you keep pressing through. Keep well my friend, congrats on graduating.
SwedishDemocracy
Lots of skills ,wow that great,and sad sorry for the pain. That poem show you have IT run with it.baby.RUN because you are a man that truly has something for this world
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