Journal Entry for May 2, 2009
May 2, 2009 2:28pm
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Ecca
8:51pm, November 13, 2009
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About Me
Ecca
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About Me
I took a break for a while from Daily Strength but I am STILL in pain - physically and emotionally and I NEED ALL OF YOU AND YOUR CONSTANT SUPPORT! I'm now REALLY lonely more than ever with my depressed, hopeless feelings and isolation at home because of my troublesome catheter AND THE MORE DOCTORS I SEE who say there is no cure and I will have to wear this catheter forever, thus never having a romantic relationship again! That prospect alone kills me and makes me not want to live anymore! I used to be a type-A person who did a million different things a day, had a wonderful, eclectic mix of friends, worked a lot, took classes twice a week to be always learning somethings new, playing sports, entertaining friends and my favorite thing to do in the world - travel! I used to plan a trip outside of the U.S. every year! Now, I can hardly get out of bed, I'm on permanent disability, divorced, friendless and hopeless. Now, having been diagnosed with a Flaccid Blader (a non-working bladder where I cannot pee anymore) and having to wear a permanent catheter changes my future orever. My other life-long, health problems having severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, chronic pain in my hands and lower back and hip pain, tc.) I could deal with those ailments and still live a reasonably happy life with work, play and relationships. But, his is SO MUCH WORSE! Embarrassing, painful, isolating and limiting in somore ways than I can say.
I took a break for a while from Daily Strength but I am STILL in pain - physically and emotionally and I NEED ALL OF YOU AND YOUR CONSTANT SUPPORT! I'm now REALLY lonely more than ever with my depressed, hopeless feelings and isolation at home because of my troublesome catheter AND THE MORE DOCTORS I SEE who say there is no cure and I will have to wear this catheter forever, thus never having a romantic relationship again! That prospect alone kills me and makes me not want to live anymore! I used
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Interests
Art, film, cats, psychology, politics, painting, World travel: old, ruins, sacred sites, cathedrals, history, different cultures, traditions and religions.
Art, film, cats, psychology, politics, painting, World travel: old, ruins, sacred sites, cathedrals,
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Thanks Rubella, I always look forward to an email from you since you know what I'm going through. I don't…
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Ecca gave RubellaUmbrella a thanks 10:08pm
Thanks Rubella, I always look forward to an email from you since you know what I'm going through. I don't…
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Thanks Rubella, I always look forward to an email from you since you know what I'm going through. I don't…
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Ecca gave RubellaUmbrella a thanks 10:07pm
Thanks Rubella, I always look forward to an email from you since you know what I'm going through. I don't…
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New Account as of May 2, 2009
May 2, 2009 2:16pm
Need support to learn how to be "positive" and stay on Daily Strength to accept help.
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Work daily and do activities w/friends and alone.
October 22, 2008 6:27pm
I am frustrated to be on SSDI and can't do the things I used to like work, see people, play.
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Hugbook
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Hang in there! There is a whole world of people just on this website who know how you feel! Take care!
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Sorry
I'm sorry to see you so down, such a basic function has become your worst nightmare, I know. I have a feeling that I'm headed where you are, and I keep the thought in the innermost recesses of my mind. With the right man, you will not be rejected because of this: you will find a plentitude of emotional support rather than disdain. Please hang in there, Ecca, for every problem there is a solution, never forget that!
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Big hug for you Ecca! I saw your post today and thought I'd say hello. :-)
Flower
Welcome back! It is OK to take breaks from support groups. Sometimes we all need a little break from computers.
Hope you heal quickly
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I'm here for you if you ever need to vent, or talk. hang in there. i hope you feel better soon.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Loneliness
So many health problems but have had depression all of my life!
Treatments
- Climara Working / Worked
- Good. Meds I have tried all of the Antidepressants out there and they have never worked for me.
Close Life After Divorce
It has taken me almost three years of extreme pain, to "get over" heartache of my divorce.
Treatments
- Time Working / Worked
- Time and a lot of crying talking support from friends and family play and a really good therapist! It has been three years now and I feel finally free and have gotten myself back
Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
Have had CFIDS all of my life mixed w/insomnia. I was formally diagnosed w/it in 2000 and attend a support group for it because it really has effected my life! I am on SDI, newly divorced and trying to figure out what to do for a job that won't "wear me out".
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- no effect
- DHEA Working / Worked
- no effect
- Pain Management Clinic Somewhat Helpful
- Nice to be w/people who had similar health problems as me. Pain program was only 2 weeks.
- Paxil Working / Worked
- constipation, GI problems
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Helps but I cant do aerobic types anymore. I walk and stretch outside.
Open Chronic Pain
Misc. Chronic Pain: Fibromyalgia, CFIDS, De Quarvain's Syndrome, Carpal Tunnel, Back pain, Hip pain from breaking it in 2006, GI disorder, Flaccid Bladder, Depression, Anxiety, Insomnia.
Treatments
- Acupressure Working / Worked
- Made me relaxed and helped pain for an hour.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- No effect
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- Helps when back is in pain.
- Heat Working / Worked
- Sometimes w/lower back.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- Helped but got addicted and took many attempts alone to get off/detox which was hell!
- Lidoderm Working / Worked
- Helped lower back but had to take off when got too hot.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Meditate a little bit to calm down panic attacks but need some formal training if I can get my CFIDS under control enough to join a class!
- Methadone Not Working
- Made me ill - vomit.
- Morphine Working / Worked
- Doesn't work anymore and causes depression and angry mood swings! Miserable and most difficult to get off!
- Naproxen Not Working
- no effect
- Neurontin Working / Worked
- On now and not sure if it helps.
- Oxycodone Working / Worked
- Got addicted and took a year to get off!
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
- Helped me to walk again when I broke my hip and now, I wish I could afford it for my general overall body pain!
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Works but I don't have many friends or family anymore.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Nice to hear other peoples stories and get their support and give support.
