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i feel better today that i did yesterday. maybe this spin i have been in for the past two months is peetering off. thank god. and i do everyday.
last night i was at a coffee shop just getting back to my car when this guy asked me something. at first i didn't understand what he said, but when i looked at him, i saw that he was reaching out and asking for help. he wanted money to get back into the subway and something to eat. he said he was originally from Cuba and had been in NS for the past few years. funny enough he was wearing a t-shirt with the name of the country that i was born in. he said his girlfriend is from the same country. non of that mattered to me. anyway, i got him what he asked for and he gave me a hug. yesterday in my journal, i wrote i wanted a hug. well i got it. thank you god.
it's another beautiful day and i will be going for a run in an hour or so. today feels like one of those days when i feel i can make changes to my life all at the same time. so i did m y dishes, which were stacking up. i still have to finish painting my bedroom and do more laundry and wash the car. whew. just writing aabout it is sending my thoughs back to be. just kidding.
iam not sure what to write now. a few years ago when i started writing three pages daily, i always struggled to do that. but when i got it done, i always felt lighter than before when i started to wriite. so when i reach a block like now, i knw i write whatever is on my mind even the process of doing it as it come to me.
last night a friend updated me on website he is developing. he said something interesting that i had not thought of before. he / the website is campainging to eliminate the term HIV-negative. he wants to replace it with a number of other terms like, status unknown. st atus unknown, he says, refers to anyone who is sexually active whether or not they have had a test for HIV recently or not. recent negative results only means that HIV was not found at that time. but the way many gay men behave sexually, a 'negative' test result today, cannot be used as confirmation of status a week from then because of how sexually busy some gay men are. he has a point i think. so HIV negative, as a status, is misleading since i could contract it the day after and so therefore no one, no one, really knows of their status if they are sexuallly active at any give time.
i wish him all the best with the website he is developing.
