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7:24pm, October 4, 2009
Al-Anon’s Slogans (these are found in many if not all 12 step programs)
The Al-Anon program includes several simple, familiar, easy-to-remember “slogans” that
members have found helpful for coping with a variety of circumstances. Our slogans
include the following:
Keep It Simple:
The slogan, “Keep It Simple” helps to remind us that simple solutions are
often the most effective ones. This slogan can help us look at what really is
happening rather than what we imagine may happen, and to take a
reasonable, step by step approach rather than act out of fear or panic.
But For The Grace Of God:
The slogan, “But For The Grace Of God” helps to remind us to be
compassionate with others, including the alcoholics in our lives. This slogan
can help us avoid impatience, criticism, resentment, and vengefulness, which
does harm to ourselves as well as to others.
Easy Does It:
The slogan, “Easy Does It” helps us remember that trying to “force
solutions” often does not work. We may not be able to solve every problem in
the time frame we wish to solve it in. Some problems may not be for us to
solve. Sometimes a gentler, more patient approach is more effective and less
frustrating.
First Things First:
The slogan, “First Things First” helps us to set reasonable priorities and to
keep a realistic perspective. This slogan helps us to make choices we are
comfortable with, and to act with balance rather than react to crises.
Just For Today:
The slogan, “Just For Today” tells us that things are more manageable when
we deal with and live in the present. Things that seem way too difficult to
manage long term may seem more manageable if we deal with them just for
today. We can move forward in small steps rather than be overwhelmed by
trying to change everything at one time. This is described further in the Al-Anon
pamphlet, Just For Today.
Let It Begin With Me:
The slogan, “Let It Begin With Me” helps us to keep the focus on and be
responsible for our own actions and behaviors. This slogan helps us to take
action to change the things we can change and to take the responsibility to
get our own needs met, rather than waiting for others to change or to meet
our needs for us.
How Important Is It?
The slogan, “How Important Is It” helps us to have perspective, to
determine what is of most value to us personally, and to avoid being upset
over things that are of minimal importance at the moment. It helps free
us to appreciate the good things that life offers.
Think:
The slogan, “Think” helps us to remember to think before we act on or react
to situations. This slogan helps us make good decisions about how to act.
When we apply this slogan, it helps free us from distorted thinking and
impulsive, potentially destructive decision-making.
One Day At A Time:
The slogan, “One Day At A Time” provides a practical approach to challenges
and fears. We focus our energies on dealing productively with today, and we
give up worrying about a future we can not predict or control and about a
past we cannot change. It helps us break overwhelming tasks into manageable
steps.
Keep An Open Mind:
The slogan, “Keep An Open Mind” helps us to be open to ideas from sources
that we might not have imagined could be helpful. It helps us to take
advantage of all opportunities.
Live And Let Live:
The slogan, “Live And Let Live” has two parts. “Let live” reminds us to allow
others the dignity of making their own decisions and experiencing the
consequences of their decisions and choices. By minding our own business, we
are freed from feeling responsible for changing other. We also learn to “live”
by taking care of our own physical, emotional, and spiritual needs.
Let Go And Let God:
The slogan, “Let Go And Let God” helps us to let go of trying to control
things we can not control. When our attempts at control are not working,
when we feel we have run out of options, when we don’t know what we can do,
this slogan helps us trust that a Power greater than ourselves will help us
when the time is right.
Setting Boundaries
The purpose of setting boundaries is to take care of our self. Being forced to learn how to set boundaries is a vital part of learning to own our self, of learning to respect ourselves, of learning to love ourselves. If we never have to set a boundary, then we will never get in touch with who we really are - will never escape the enmeshment of codependence and learn to define ourselves as separate in a healthy way.
When I first encountered the concept of boundaries, I thought of them as lines that I would draw in the sand - and if you stepped across them I would shoot you (figuratively speaking.) (I had this image of some place like the Alamo - from a movie I guess - where a sword was used to draw a line in the sand, and then those that were going to stay and fight to the death stepped across it.) I thought that boundaries had to be rigid and final and somehow kind of fatal.
Some boundaries are rigid - and need to be. Boundaries such as: "It is not OK to hit me, ever." "It is not acceptable to call me certain names." "It is not acceptable to cheat on me."
No one deserves to be treated abusively. No one deserves to be lied to and betrayed.
We all deserve to be treated with respect and dignity. If we do not respect ourselves, if we do not start awakening to our right to be treated with respect and dignity (and our responsibility in creating that in our lives) - then we will be more comfortable being involved with people who abuse us then with people who treat us in loving ways. Often if we do not respect ourselves, we will end up exhibiting abusive behavior towards people who do not abuse us. On some level in our codependence, we are more comfortable with being abused (because it is what we have always known) than being treated in a loving way.
Learning to set boundaries is vital to learning to love our self, and to communicating to other's that we have worth.
There are basically three parts to a boundary. The first two are setting the boundary - the third is what we will do to defend that boundary.
If you - a description of the behavior we find unacceptable (again being as descriptive as possible.)
I will - a description of what action you will take to protect and take care of your self in the event the other person violates the boundary.
If you continue this behavior - a description of what steps you will take to protect the boundary that you have set.
One very drastic example (in the case of someone who is just learning about boundaries and has been physically abused in the past) would be:
If you ever hit me, I will call the police and press charges - and I will leave this relationship. If you continue to threaten me, I will get a restraining order and prepare to defend myself in whatever manner is necessary.
It is not always necessary or appropriate to share the third part of this formula with the other person when setting a boundary - the first two steps are the actual setting of the boundary. The third part is something we need to know for ourselves, so that we know what action we can take if the other person violates the boundary. If we set a boundary and expect the other person to abide by it automatically - then we are setting ourselves up to be a victim of our expectation.
It is not enough to set boundaries - it is necessary to be willing to do whatever it takes to enforce them. We need to be willing to go to any length, do whatever it takes to protect ourselves. This is something that really upset me when I first started learning how to set boundaries. It took great courage for me to build myself up to a point where I was willing to set a boundary. I thought that the huge thing I had done to set a boundary should be enough. Then to see that some people just ignored the boundaries I had set, seemed terribly unfair to me.
Consequences
It is very important to set consequences that we are willing to enforce. If you are setting boundaries in a relationship, and you are not yet at a point where you are ready to leave the relationship - then don't say that you will leave. You can say that you will start considering all of your options including leaving - but do not state that you will do something that you are not ready yet to do. To set boundaries and not enforce them just gives the other person an excuse to continue in the same old behavior.
If you verbally abuse me by calling me names like stupid or jerk, I will confront you about your behavior and share my feelings.
If you continue that behavior I will leave the room/house/ask you to leave.
If you keep repeating this behavior I will start considering all of my options, including leaving this relationship.
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If you break your plans with me by not showing up or by calling me at the last minute to tell me that you had something else come up, I will confront your behavior and share my feelings.
If you repeat that behavior, I will consider it to mean that you do not value or deserve my friendship - and I will have no contact with you for a month.
Since behavior patterns are quite ingrained in all of us, it is important to allow the other person some wiggle room to make a change in behavior - unless the behavior is really intolerable. To go from one extreme to the other is a reaction to a reaction - and is codependent. There are choices in between which are sometimes hard for us to see if we are reacting. To go from tolerating verbally abusive behavior to leaving a relationship in one step is swinging between extremes. It is helpful to set boundaries that allow for some gradual change.
When I ask you what is wrong and you say "Never mind," and then slam cabinet doors and rattle pots and pans and generally seem to be silently raging about something,
I feel angry, frustrated, irritated, hopeless, as if you are unwilling to communicate with me, as if I am supposed to read your mind.
I want you to communicate with me and help me to understand if I have done something that upsets you.
If something is bothering you and you will not tell me what it is, I will confront you about your behavior and share my feelings.
If you continue that behavior, I will confront your behavior, share my feelings, and insist that we go to counseling together.
If you keep repeating this behavior I will start considering all of my options, including leaving this relationship.
The consequences we set down for behavior we find unacceptable should be realistic - in that, the change that we are asking for is something that is within the others power (rather they are willing to take that responsibility is another thing altogether) - and enforceable, something that we are willing to do.
It is also important to set consequences that impact the other person more than us. Often when people are first learning how to set boundaries, they do not think it through far enough. They set boundaries that impact themselves as much or more than the other person. For example, a single parent with a teenager who needs to get consequences for coming home late, or bad grades, or whatever, may be tempted to say something like "If you miss your curfew again, you will be grounded for a month." The reality of grounding a teenager for a month is that it often means the parent is also grounded for a month. If taking away driving privileges means then you will have to drive them to school - maybe you want to choose some other consequence.
Choices
Setting a boundary is not making a threat - it is communicating clearly what the consequences will be if the other person continues to treat us in an unacceptable manner. It is a consequence of the other persons behavior.
Setting a boundary is not an attempt to control the other person (although some of the people who you set boundaries with will certainly accuse you of that - just as some will interpret it as a threat) - it is a part of the process of defining ourselves and what is acceptable to us. It is a major step in taking what control we can of how we allow others to treat us. It is a vital step in taking responsibility for our self and our life.
Setting boundaries is not a more sophisticated way of manipulation - although some people will say they are setting boundaries, when in fact they are attempting to manipulate. The difference between setting a boundary in a healthy way and manipulating is: when we set a boundary we let go of the outcome.
We want the other person to change their behavior. We hope they will. But we need to own all of our choices in order to empower ourselves to take responsibility for our lives and stop setting ourselves up to be a victim. One of our choices is to remove ourselves from relationship with the person. We can leave a marriage. We can end a friendship. We can leave a job. We do not have to have any contact with our family of origin. It is vitally important to own all of our choices.
If we do not own that we have a choice to leave an abusive relationship - then we are not making a choice to stay in the relationship. Any time we do not own our choices, we are empowering victimization. We will then blame the other person, and/or blame ourselves. It is a vital part of the process of learning to love ourselves, and taking responsibility for being a co-creator in our life, to own all of our choices.
It is essential to own that we have choices in order to escape the codependent suffering victim martyr role - or the other extreme, which is being abusive in order to try to make others do it "right" (that is, do what we want them to.) Both, the people who appear to be victims and the people that appear to be abusers, are coming from a victim place in terms of blaming others for their behavior. "I wouldn't have to hit you if you didn't talk to me that way" is a victim statement. Both victim and perpetrator are coming from a victim perspective, blaming their behaviors on others - or on themselves, "I can't help it, that is just how I am."
When we look outside for self-definition and self-worth, we are giving power away and setting ourselves up to be victims. We are trained to be victims. We are taught to give our power away.
As just one small example of how pervasively we are trained to be victims, consider how often you have said, or heard someone say, "I have to go to work tomorrow." When we say "I have to" we are making a victim statement. To say, "I have to get up, and I have to go to work," is a lie. No one forces an adult to get up and go to work. The Truth is "I choose to get up and I choose to go to work today, because I choose to not have the consequences of not working." To say, "I choose," is not only the Truth, it is empowering and acknowledges an act of self-Love. When we "have to" do something we feel like a victim. And because we feel victimized, we will then be angry, and want to punish, whomever we see as forcing us to do something we do not want to do such as our family, or our boss, or society.
"And we always have a choice. If someone sticks a gun in my face and says, "Your money or your life!" I have a choice. I may not like my choice but I have one. In life we often don't like our choices because we don't know what the outcome is going to be and we are terrified of doing it 'wrong.'
Even with life events that occur in a way that we seemingly don't have a choice over (being laid off work, the car breaking down, a flood, etc.) we still have a choice over how we respond to those events. We can choose to see things that feel like, and seem to be, tragic as opportunities for growth. We can choose to focus on the half of the glass that is full and be grateful for it or to focus on the half that is empty and be the victim of it. We have a choice about where we focus our minds.
In order to become empowered, to become the co-creator in our lives, and to stop giving power to the belief that we are the victim, it is absolutely necessary to own that we have choices. As in the quotation above: if we believe that we "have" to do something then we are buying into the belief that we are the victim and don't have the power to make choices. To say "I have to go to work" is a lie. "I have to go to work if I want to eat" may be the truth but then you are making a choice to eat. The more conscious we get about our choices, the more empowered we become.
We need to take the "have to"s out of our vocabulary. As long as we reacting to life unconsciously we do not have choices. In consciousness we always have a choice. We do not "have to" do anything.
Until we own that we have a choice, we haven't made one. In other words, if you do not believe that you have a choice to leave your job, or relationship, then you have not made a choice to stay in it. You can only Truly commit yourself to something if you are consciously choosing to do it. This includes the area that is probably the single hardest job in our society today, the area that it is almost impossible not to feel trapped in some of the time - being a single parent. A single parent has the choice of giving their children up for adoption, or abandoning them. That is a choice! If a single parent believes that he/she has no choice, then they will feel trapped and resentful and will end up taking it out on their children!" - Empowerment and Victimization - the power of choice
We always have a choice. The choices may seem to be awful - but in reality, allowing ourselves to buy into the illusion that we are trapped will have worse consequences in the long run. It may seem ridiculous to suggest that a parent can abandon or give a child up for adoption - but owning our choices no matter how outrageous is a step in owning responsibility for being co-creators in our life. If we are blaming and being the victim we will never be happy.
(And this is a good example of when sharing the 3rd part of this formula is not appropriate. It would be abusive to threaten a child with being put up for adoption. This is a choice that we need to own to escape feeling trapped in our relationship with ourselves - it is strictly an internal thing. With children it is vital to not project our own internal struggle onto the child - it doesn't have anything to do with the child, it is all about our relationship with self.)
Negotiation
We set a boundary to define our territory, to protect our space - physical, emotional, mental, sexual, spiritual, financial, etc. We set the boundary because it is what we need to do for our self, to protect and take care of our self. We set it knowing that the other person may not be able or willing to change their behavior - and that we are prepared to take whatever action we need to take if that proves to be the case. That action may include cutting that person out of our life completely.
I was scared of setting boundaries because the little boy in me was afraid of: hurting other people; having other people be angry at me; being abandoned; losing the relationship. Ultimately, it came down to: people will go away if I say no or set a boundary with them.
I had to become willing to take that risk. I had to decide that I had enough worth to stand up for myself even if people did go away. And some people did go away. Some people do still when I set a boundary. But I was also amazed to see that some of the people that I set a boundary with started to treat me with more respect. They were able to hear me and valued me enough to change their behavior.
By becoming willing to take the risk of setting boundaries, I got the wonderful gift of getting what I wanted - some of the time. I had to let go of the outcome and learn to accept the situation however it unfolded. I had to let go of a lot of people that I had considered friends. I came to the realization that the people I had been calling friends, were not really friends at all - because as long as I did not know how to be a friend to myself, I could not truly recognize friendship in others. As long as I was unconsciously reacting out of my old programming, the people I was attracted to were people who would abuse me, shame me, abandon and betray me.
I came to the realization that anyone who is a friend is someone I can communicate with - and be able to negotiate boundaries with. The vast majority of boundaries are in fact a negotiation rather than a rigid line in the sand. Adults need to negotiate boundaries between themselves. This is very true in romantic relationships - and is the standard for all relationships.
What we are striving for is healthy interdependent relationships. We want friends who are allies. With alliances it is necessary to negotiate boundaries. Here is what I am willing to do, and here is what I need from you. We want a romantic relationship with a partner who will share our journey with us. In order to make that possible it is necessary to communicate, share feelings, and negotiate agreements about behavior. By setting boundaries, we are communicating with another person. We are telling them who we are and what we need. It is much more effective to do that directly and honestly than to expect them to read our minds - and then punish them when they cannot.
Often it is little things that seem inconsequential that it is most important to set boundaries about. Irritating little habits or mannerism of another person. The irritating little things will grow into huge monsters unless we learn to communicate and negotiate. When we stuff our feelings we build up resentments. Resentments are victim feelings - the feeling that somebody is doing something to us. If we don't speak up and take the risk of sharing how we feel, we will end up blowing up and/or being passive aggressive - and damaging the relationship.
Learning to set boundaries is a vital part of learning to communicate in a direct and honest manner. It is impossible to have a healthy relationship with someone who has no boundaries, with someone who cannot communicate directly, and honestly. Learning how to set boundaries is a necessary step in learning to be a friend to ourselves. It is our responsibility to take care of ourselves - to protect ourselves when it is necessary. It is impossible to learn to be Loving to ourselves without owning our self - and owning our rights and responsibilities as co-creators of our lives.
Found this in my alanon group
What Manner Of Communications Are These?
The quality of human relationships depends largely upon the way we communicate with each other. It depends not only on what we say, but how we say it; not only on what we do, but our motives for doing it. Our tone of voice and even our smallest actions are elements of communication; many of us are hardly aware of these.
When partners in a marriage are held together by a bond of love, mutual respect, and a desire to please and comfort, communication naturally falls into patterns that express feelings and give both husband and wife confidence in each other and a sense of security and mutual dependence.
When a relationship is distorted by an unbalanced dependence, or by suspicion, hostility, excessive demands, and expectations, these flaws reveal themselves in the way the two people communicate with each other.
If a man marries a woman because he was attracted by her warm maternal quality, as many addicts do, he is likely to be the dependent one. And she, attracted to him because of her unconscious desire to mother someone, will be the practical member of the family. She may later bemoan the fact that he has failed in his role as head of the house, not aware that it was she who took the reins and did all the managing. And while she was managing him, the children, the household, the finances, she's awash with self pity because of the big load she has to carry.
If he is drinking, her constant protective watchfulness makes it easy for him to sidestep getting help. He has no incentive to get sober. She convinces herself that she's doing her very best for him; she hasn't learned, as she would in Al- Anon, that shielding him from the consequences of his abuse only prolongs it's course.
When he is under the influence, her reaction is to reproach him for his behavior, and that's the worst time to attempt to communicate with him. In fact it can't be done without triggering a family war.
Until she learns what is wrong with her attitude and how to change herself so he will be forced to face his responsibilities, the situation isn't likely to improve.
If a man married a woman because she's shy, timid and submissive, he unconsciously chose a wife who would satisfy his need to dominate. If she turns out to be an addict, he will have the complete dependent he wants, no matter how desperately he thinks he wants her sober. He, too, will cover up her drinking, protect her from public disgrace, and assume all the responsibilities which should be hers.
Such distorted relationships are often found in substance abuse marriages, and they inevitably lead to the drying up of communication which is vital to a good marriage.
We can make verbal communication effective if we never lose sight of the fact that the substance abuser is sick; he has a disease for which it is unfair to blame or punish him. But he must be told- at the right time and without anger or reproach- what he has done and is doing.
This suggestion, from an AA member, has proved successful in many cases.
"The abuser may experience blackouts. He appears to be functioning, but he usually doesn't remember what he did or said. He suspects that something did happen and his anxiety and nameless guilt are almost unbearable. If you're sorry for him, you might think it's unfair to torture him by telling him what his abuse has led to. But it's kinder and more constructive to relieve his mind and tell him frankly what he needs to know. He has a right to know what his abuse is doing to him. If you go to him without anger and reproach and tell him quietly what happened, you'll be helping him to see himself as he is. "My wife did just this for me and it was the single most helpful thing that ever happened to bring me to sobriety."
" I had no idea how far I had fallen from my own ideals until she came to me one morning and told me what I had done the night before. And as soon as she had spoken her piece, she excused herself and quietly left me to figure out myself what I was going to do about it."
"But the abuser must be allowed to draw his own conclusions. If you tell him how he looked, how he acted, what you think of him for it, it won't work." He'll just fall back on the old excuse "She's picking on me again", and he'll have a grievance against you that will sustain him over this bad time.
Until the spouse has been exposed to the AL-ANON program, she automatically assumes that the abuser could, only if he wanted to, get sober and behave better, so she berates him when he comes home under the influence. And when the phase is past, she hesitates to bring up even urgent problems for fear of giving him reason for another binge.
This brings to mind a meeting that inspired the members to explore their own motivations and to understand how they were performing in their communication with their partners. The topic was:
Do you say what you mean?
Do you mean what to say?
Many of difficulties of achieving good communication lie not only with the abuser, but with the spouse as well. The stresses and uncertainties she lives with each day-the dread, the fear, the anger-have so distorted her reasoning powers that the most of her reactions are emotional and often destructive. The chairman asked the members, "Why don't we say what we mean? Why aren't we honest enough to confront the troublesome partner with some straight truths? They're surely obvious enough, but if we fail to let the abuser know how we feel about things, how will he know? What's going to motivate him to find sobriety if we let him believe that his behavior acceptable?"
Each person spoke in turn; these were the answers.
" I don't say what I think because I want to avoid fights and trouble. I guess I haven't learned to distinguish between saying disagreeable, critical things and making plain statements about a situation that will throw light on them without hurting his feelings." The next speaker said, " I"m afraid to tell him what I think. Usually I think of nothing but criticizing him of what he's doing, and I know that's wrong because he's sick. And whom he's sober he's so nice and kind that I hate to bring up the unpleasant things that happened. And anyway aren't we supposed to work on ourselves in this program? Telling him how we feel about the things he does seem to me the same as taking his inventory."
Commenting on these two remarks, the chairman said, "You know that no improvement can be accomplished unless we're consistent. If we haven't the courage to speak up when the abuser is in a sober phase, he'll just go on believing there is no limit to what we will tolerate. But we have to know what we think before we can say it convincingly. We can't just bury it and hide our heads under a blanket of hope. Our husbands have a right to know what we expect from them. It's up to them to decide whether or not they want to live up to our expectations. Not letting them know how we feel is dishonest. It's just another way of pretending we accept the situation when we don't. It's a cop out. If we want the abuser to face reality, we must face it first, and not be afraid to share our feelings. I don't think that's the same as nagging as long as we don't repeat ourselves, and I don't think it's the same as taking his inventory. What do you think?"
The next member spoke up, " It's bad enough to sidestep saying what we mean, but it's even worse to say what we don't mean. My long standing habit of "blowing my top" when my husband was abusing lasted long after he was sober. I reacted to anything that annoyed me with the first angry words that came to mind. I'd forget that he was just getting back some of his long lost self esteem, and would say something bitter that would undermine it. I guess I wanted to hurt him because of all he'd put me through in the past. But I'm getting over that. I began to realize that the hurtful things I was saying really hit home he actually believed them and I didn't mean them at all! I'm doing better as time goes on, but I have to keep reminding myself, " Don't say it unless you mean it." and that has kept me from saying a lot of things I'd later wish I hadn't."
What emerged out of that meeting was finally summed up by the chairman.
We can say what we mean only if we have the courage to be honest, with ourselves and others. We must know why we are saying it. If it's to impress, belittle, to convey our self pity or resentment, it ought not to be said. That would only widen the rift and we want to close the gap! And we can mean what we say only if we stop the rash statements before they hit the air.
The quality of human relationships depends largely upon the way we communicate with each other. It depends not only on what we say, but how we say it; not only on what we do, but our motives for doing it. Our tone of voice and even our smallest actions are elements of communication; many of us are hardly aware of these.
When partners in a marriage are held together by a bond of love, mutual respect, and a desire to please and comfort, communication naturally falls into patterns that express feelings and give both husband and wife confidence in each other and a sense of security and mutual dependence.
When a relationship is distorted by an unbalanced dependence, or by suspicion, hostility, excessive demands, and expectations, these flaws reveal themselves in the way the two people communicate with each other.
If a man marries a woman because he was attracted by her warm maternal quality, as many addicts do, he is likely to be the dependent one. And she, attracted to him because of her unconscious desire to mother someone, will be the practical member of the family. She may later bemoan the fact that he has failed in his role as head of the house, not aware that it was she who took the reins and did all the managing. And while she was managing him, the children, the household, the finances, she's awash with self pity because of the big load she has to carry.
If he is drinking, her constant protective watchfulness makes it easy for him to sidestep getting help. He has no incentive to get sober. She convinces herself that she's doing her very best for him; she hasn't learned, as she would in Al- Anon, that shielding him from the consequences of his abuse only prolongs it's course.
When he is under the influence, her reaction is to reproach him for his behavior, and that's the worst time to attempt to communicate with him. In fact it can't be done without triggering a family war.
Until she learns what is wrong with her attitude and how to change herself so he will be forced to face his responsibilities, the situation isn't likely to improve.
If a man married a woman because she's shy, timid and submissive, he unconsciously chose a wife who would satisfy his need to dominate. If she turns out to be an addict, he will have the complete dependent he wants, no matter how desperately he thinks he wants her sober. He, too, will cover up her drinking, protect her from public disgrace, and assume all the responsibilities which should be hers.
Such distorted relationships are often found in substance abuse marriages, and they inevitably lead to the drying up of communication which is vital to a good marriage.
We can make verbal communication effective if we never lose sight of the fact that the substance abuser is sick; he has a disease for which it is unfair to blame or punish him. But he must be told- at the right time and without anger or reproach- what he has done and is doing.
This suggestion, from an AA member, has proved successful in many cases.
"The abuser may experience blackouts. He appears to be functioning, but he usually doesn't remember what he did or said. He suspects that something did happen and his anxiety and nameless guilt are almost unbearable. If you're sorry for him, you might think it's unfair to torture him by telling him what his abuse has led to. But it's kinder and more constructive to relieve his mind and tell him frankly what he needs to know. He has a right to know what his abuse is doing to him. If you go to him without anger and reproach and tell him quietly what happened, you'll be helping him to see himself as he is. "My wife did just this for me and it was the single most helpful thing that ever happened to bring me to sobriety."
" I had no idea how far I had fallen from my own ideals until she came to me one morning and told me what I had done the night before. And as soon as she had spoken her piece, she excused herself and quietly left me to figure out myself what I was going to do about it."
"But the abuser must be allowed to draw his own conclusions. If you tell him how he looked, how he acted, what you think of him for it, it won't work." He'll just fall back on the old excuse "She's picking on me again", and he'll have a grievance against you that will sustain him over this bad time.
Until the spouse has been exposed to the AL-ANON program, she automatically assumes that the abuser could, only if he wanted to, get sober and behave better, so she berates him when he comes home under the influence. And when the phase is past, she hesitates to bring up even urgent problems for fear of giving him reason for another binge.
This brings to mind a meeting that inspired the members to explore their own motivations and to understand how they were performing in their communication with their partners. The topic was:
Do you say what you mean?
Do you mean what to say?
Many of difficulties of achieving good communication lie not only with the abuser, but with the spouse as well. The stresses and uncertainties she lives with each day-the dread, the fear, the anger-have so distorted her reasoning powers that the most of her reactions are emotional and often destructive. The chairman asked the members, "Why don't we say what we mean? Why aren't we honest enough to confront the troublesome partner with some straight truths? They're surely obvious enough, but if we fail to let the abuser know how we feel about things, how will he know? What's going to motivate him to find sobriety if we let him believe that his behavior acceptable?"
Each person spoke in turn; these were the answers.
" I don't say what I think because I want to avoid fights and trouble. I guess I haven't learned to distinguish between saying disagreeable, critical things and making plain statements about a situation that will throw light on them without hurting his feelings." The next speaker said, " I"m afraid to tell him what I think. Usually I think of nothing but criticizing him of what he's doing, and I know that's wrong because he's sick. And whom he's sober he's so nice and kind that I hate to bring up the unpleasant things that happened. And anyway aren't we supposed to work on ourselves in this program? Telling him how we feel about the things he does seem to me the same as taking his inventory."
Commenting on these two remarks, the chairman said, "You know that no improvement can be accomplished unless we're consistent. If we haven't the courage to speak up when the abuser is in a sober phase, he'll just go on believing there is no limit to what we will tolerate. But we have to know what we think before we can say it convincingly. We can't just bury it and hide our heads under a blanket of hope. Our husbands have a right to know what we expect from them. It's up to them to decide whether or not they want to live up to our expectations. Not letting them know how we feel is dishonest. It's just another way of pretending we accept the situation when we don't. It's a cop out. If we want the abuser to face reality, we must face it first, and not be afraid to share our feelings. I don't think that's the same as nagging as long as we don't repeat ourselves, and I don't think it's the same as taking his inventory. What do you think?"
The next member spoke up, " It's bad enough to sidestep saying what we mean, but it's even worse to say what we don't mean. My long standing habit of "blowing my top" when my husband was abusing lasted long after he was sober. I reacted to anything that annoyed me with the first angry words that came to mind. I'd forget that he was just getting back some of his long lost self esteem, and would say something bitter that would undermine it. I guess I wanted to hurt him because of all he'd put me through in the past. But I'm getting over that. I began to realize that the hurtful things I was saying really hit home he actually believed them and I didn't mean them at all! I'm doing better as time goes on, but I have to keep reminding myself, " Don't say it unless you mean it." and that has kept me from saying a lot of things I'd later wish I hadn't."
What emerged out of that meeting was finally summed up by the chairman.
We can say what we mean only if we have the courage to be honest, with ourselves and others. We must know why we are saying it. If it's to impress, belittle, to convey our self pity or resentment, it ought not to be said. That would only widen the rift and we want to close the gap! And we can mean what we say only if we stop the rash statements before they hit the air.
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