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gkg21 
11:35pm, November 1, 2009
10-24-09: What a crazy week! White-out day was on Scott's 24th birthday. (Thursday, October 22) Seeing the Grim Reaper come into every class, all day, was hard! I did have to go to the bathroom, one time, and just cry. It was TOUGH!
Also, on Thursday, my sister-in-law's husband passed away from cancer. His visitation is tomorrow. We were not close but it is hard on the family.
And, one of our close friends brother's is in critical condition. He has double pneumonia and acute respirortory distress. He is just 51.
It seems everywhere I look there is insanity of some sort! I guess it has always been this way but I was not as aware as I am now. Now, I understand true pain and suffering. I guess I just pay more attention and feel the pain of others more.
Work is still a bit crazy. But I do find myself enjoying my job. I miss the kids from my other class but the kids I am working with now give me joy, too. It is just different. I am just trying to fly under the radar, for now.
I was really sick, again, the week of the 11th. I stayed home from work three days. I am nervous about missing work given everything that has been going on. But, I truly was sick. One day I didn't even shower!!! If you don't know me that might not seem so odd. But, if you do, you would know I shower EVERY day and sometimes twice if I feel icky! In my twenty-five years of marriage, this is only the second time I have missed a daily shower. Craig teased me about it....
I am on the mend, I think. I have been so sick, so often, since Scott died. I have read that is not unusual. But, I am truly tired of getting sick! I guess I just got so low and every germ sees me as an easy target.
I am getting a flu shot Friday. I don't care so much about it but Craig is really pushing me. I usually get one, anyway. But, since I have health issues and can get one free, I wait until a clinic is available. Not this year....Craig is insisting I get it and pay for it! On one hand that is annoying. On the other, at least he cares!
So, such is life....I am continuing to take one breath at a time.
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I am so glad that White out day is over...that was too much! I remember the first school year after Alex passed not enjoying what I was doing...it all being a blur. But last year i remember thinking...I love teaching...and was more like my old self...and allowed myself to get into my teaching again. That truly helped me to cope with the loss of Alex...I am so glad you are enjoying your kids now too. Take care of you...love and hugs...Karen
biowoman
I am so glad that you are feeling better. I know when I talked to you , you sure didn't sound good. I know we all still have times that things hit us & it hit me the week I was down at my friends house. But I knew when I left & started crying my friend would understand. She lost her husband about 13 years ago.
So glad you like your new kids and enjoy your job. Hope you are feeling better. Have a good week....Hugs, Connie
ConH
I'm sure it's a releif to have the "white out" day over. It's also good to hear you are enjoying your job. I do think this loss enables us to feel even deeper once we are able to trust in life again. We feel the pain of others so much more but also the good things can bring much more joy than perhaps they did prior to our loss. I hope you get on the mend soon and get that flu shot!!! Enjoy your shower today. I take a shower every day but if I'm having a pj day then I'm ok to miss, but my hubby is just like you..always one but usually two(lol). Love to you. Robin
Robin4
I have never heard about white out day, what is this.. we have Halloween in Canada I am not sure if you do also.. it is on the 31st of October..
I am glad your job is going well... I find such comfort in teaching.. I hope your health improves but I agree when we are in shock out bodies do get run down... take care of yourself my love..
munrogirl
I pray you get healthy and stay that way although grief presents us with a lowered immune system because of our mind and spirit being down.....waaaay down. Please take care of yourself. Stay home when you must....run to the restroom for a cry when you must. I am learning to make myself DO. I understand the White Out Day...the impact it should have like M.A.D.D. and their purpose. I hope it has the positive effect it should have on teens. It is just sad that you have to be reminded as well. God be with you through your grief....the rest of your days...love,Dale..Brandon's Mom
Kingsdaughter
Hi Ginger, that "white out day" at work must have been difficult. I have never heard of it but did Google it. All the things associated with Halloween certainly do take on a different meaning after what we have been through, don't they? As for me, I will always remember that on Halloween 2008, Michael and I went to a Coldplay concert in Washington DC. Some wore costumes and it was an exciting night. Michael got to touch Chris Martin and he was so excited about that! My prayers are extended to your sister-in-law and also to your friend's brother. You are so very right: these things hit close to home now. My salon manager recently lost her brother-in-law to a heart attack (while he was at work). He left behind a wife and two children still at home. I think of her sister often and ask how she and the children are doing. Try to get enough sleep to keep up your strength. They say grieving is hard work and it makes me sad when I look at myself in the mirror and see the shell of the person that I used to be. We are so much more susceptible to illness since our bodies are weakened with stress and grief (not eating right, not sleeping right etc.). Take care my friend. Hugs, Belinda
BinkyH
That's all you can do is take one day at a time. But do take care of yourself. Eat healthy and get some daily exercise. I don't like that you have been sick so often. Sending hugs, Julia
JulsMarie