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gkg21 
11:35pm, November 1, 2009
Sunday night late: I am still trying... These past couple of weeks have been so tough! Adam was having a really hard time today as this would've been his and Melissa's 18 month anniversary of being together. They had planned a small vacation to St. Louis. My heart aches for him! I talked to her Mom yesterday and like all of us she has a better day, then a worse day. None are good. I am trying to be supportive but I am hurting so much myself right now. I had my own mini-meltdown today over Scott. I was telling his Dad which drawer Scott's "short" socks were in and he might as well use them. I can't give them away or pack them yet. I haven't been able to pack any of Scott's clothes away yet. Craig kept telling me it was ok 'cause we don't need the room anyway. I don't know when/if I will ever get to that place. I think I still want to believe this is all a really bad dream. But, I know it is not. And now, Melissa. I was so looking forward to her going camping with us this summer and so many other things. I just don't get it. And tonight I looked at the "new" people and there are just so many more coming. Every minute. Everyday. It is all enough to make me crazy! I did have one positive today....A girl I used to babysit, when she was 2, came by tonight. She & I have remained close over the years. She is 20 now. Anyway, she came by, with her Dad, to tell me she is pregnant. She hadn't even told her Mom yet. I think she just wanted to know she has support before she tells her. Her mom and I are friends but she is a bit over the top sometimes. She is a very good mom but, I think, it will take her a bit to warm up to this. I told my young friend I would be there for her. It was cute when she told me. She said, "You're going to be a Grandma." I will take part-time, adopted, grandma any day. This is #3, of three different young women, and I am flattered. Another positive that happened this week....I have been tracing my family history and hooked up with a cousin I never knew. Her great-grandfather was my grandfather's brother. So, that is cool. We know for sure because we have a couple of the same photos. Cherokee ancestory can be hard to trace, I can tell you that! When the women married a white man they all claimed they were white because to be an Indian was to be a disgrace! How awful! I am proud of my heritage. Anyway, I am trying.... Peaceful wishes to everyone reading and those who are not.
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My heart aches for you and Adam and all that love Melissa. I hate the thought of what they must all go through...what you must go through...again. I will keep all of you are in my prayers...Love and hugs...Karen
biowoman
Life can change in one second. I am sorry for all your heartaches. Try to rest & take care of yourself. Hugs & Love lucille
joeymom
i wish i could take all this pain and hurt away for all of you. just take things one second at a time. love you! ~~ charlayne
Charlayne
Oh Ginger, it is --ALL of it--just so very sad. I feel so sorry for your son, he has gone through so much and now to have lost his support, too. Life is so unfair at times. I know how difficult it is to take care of your son's belongings. In my situation, a couple of my friends, my in-laws, and family & me--all did it together. It made it so much easier! That way, some things were taken by people who wanted remembrances and really cared, some went to charity--and a few things, of course I kept. One was a silly thing. He had a favorite denim shirt (I bought for him, naturally)that had a "looney tunes" decal above the pocket. I can't tell you how many times I had to reglue and finally sew it back on. Here he was, in his 30's and it was his favorite shirt! He had a lot of "Looney Tunes" collectibles and even had them on his checks. What an enigma he was! I'm sorry--I degress--I truly feel your pain. One day at a time--that is all we can do! Love, Judy
JudyWI
Ginger,
That is a lot of things to deal with so of course you ae in pain. The time to clean out Scotts room is when you feel the time is right . They do say not to hold on to things cause you can't move forward until you deal with the past.We all go at our own speed and only we know when the time is right for us. If only there was some majic that I could bestow upon you to take some of this pain away...and since there isn't all I can offer is my friendship. Hugs, Inga
ihart
I am so sorry that you and your family are having to endure another loss. Poor Adam...Love and Hugs.
TracyW
Ginger I am here for you anytime you want to talk again. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers,love ya sheri
pinkskys
im so sorry u r having to go thru this,,sometimes i know wewonder what in the world GOd is trying to do..but we have had the absolute worse happen and we are still here..hang on sweetie for all youare worth and try and smile for your baby and sweet melissa,,i will be praying for you sweetie..God be with you..Love and hugs to you..Lisa
lianasmom
It is nice that you are welcoming in the new adoptive role. It will be such a joy. I am sure it is a major blow for your son not to have Melissa around after already lossing his brother. It just not seem fair that something like this happens. Your family and your son needs the support group not more tragic loss.
Our family was suppose to go to a ground side funeral this weekend for our friends who's daughter and mother/father died in January but I just could not face it. The first one was way to hard but seeing the caskets going into the ground would have been too much for me. Their daughter Melissa and my son Brandon are together in the spirit world and I hope are doing great things. She was a junior and he was a senior in high school.Great kids! :(
Wishing you well.
akhockeymom
Holding you tight. Love and hugs cathy
RockstarsMom