froll's Journal

so  a little bit about what ive been doing since december like i say i moved house and live on my own with my dogies

i fell out with the majority of my friends they were making rumours up about me slagging me off saying im a whore n i do porn n im attention seeking they were doing all this behind my backs to other people but lied to my face when i confonted them about it so ive cut them out my life

last night was shit i couldnt sleep coz of the heat n all i could hear were my voices n laughing and this random beeping sound oh and this one sheep that kept bloody baaing all fecking night long i mean christ i had to put up with the voices and laughing and the annoying beeping my fellas snoring and then that blood sheep i felt like tracking it down n decapitating it and having it or tea but i dont eat lamb so i changed my mind i just came downstairs n cut but i didnt have my blades with me so i had to use kitchen knives n it didnt give me the same satisfaction my blades are at home n im at my fellas i really wanna cut so bad i wanna feel the warmth of the blood tricklig down me all i think about is cutting aywhere but for some reason i fantisie about cutting my face n i dont know why

i dont work coz i cant i hate going out alone i suffer from really bad anxiety n have panic atacks whihc i had last night coz i wasnt getting the satisfaction from the knives so i just stay home all day unless i go out with someone. i got diagnosed with wait its a right list

bipolar type one servier anxiety borderline personality disorder psychosis and mood dysmorphia