mistyj's Journal

I had a pretty good weekend-I took my grandpa to his 70th high school reunion in Nevada. we had a pretty good time except he fell as soon as we got there because he could not wait for me to help him from slot machine to slot machine. It was great to see his home town-he is such a treasure of history- I am so thankful to have him in my life-Last week he seemed a little down in the dumps and i asked him why he was sad-He told me-"Sweetheart-I lost my mate-of course I am sad.My grandma died 6 years ago and she was not the easiest person to live with toward the end(demetia)And he is still sad-That is what marriage is supposed to be about.I hope I have that someday.Of course three days in a hotel room with my mom left me a little stressed-It is not that she even does anything wrong intentionally- she is just controlling and manipulative by nature-Makes me more determined to get a placwe of my own. I cannot get past the damage my marriage had on my life if I can't overcome it-Living with my mom is one of the ramifications my marriage had on my life and I need to get a place of my own, a life of my own-in order to move on with my life and I am ready to move-I want to be happy again. I hope you all are well and had a good weekend.By the way I lost all my money at the casino-Those pennies sure do add up!!!