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mistyj 
I am so hurt by this wedding- not because I love him and I want to be married to him- but because of the fact that he is having a wedding.He told me no wedding- he was not into tradition.I had to take my dress back to pay a bill. I wore a sixty dollar dress and five dollar shoes. He told me no dance, no toast, no bridal shower, no honeymoon, no special wedding night.Now he is doing it all for someone I guess deseves it.I was just the single Mom-lucky to have him- the white trash fontana girl. He always told me he could get better and I guess now he thinks he did. I did fall apart in the end- the years of verbal belittlement, critisizm, sexual degradation, and indifference- beat me down. He treated me like his own little whore from the beginning, a maid, a personal assistant, and a doormat. I did not deserve that. I waited on him hand and foot, I gave him everything he wanted intimatley( even though it hurt and humilated me) I trusted him with my child, I gave him my soul. He threw me away- He said he realized fairly soon I wasn not what he wanted- he just tried to stick it out for my daughter.I have to fight hating myself because I gained weight, and lost all my confidence. I would give anything to be that confident person he took out on that first beautiful date- I was so full of life. The very first time we were together inimatley- he made fun of me- brought me down. He killed that girl and he does not even see it- Says I was never the same after my Dad died and he stuck it out for as long as he could.I know I should be past this- but I am not- I am so hurt and humiliated. I feel thrown away like a piece of trash. My heart is broken-I don't know how much more I can take.
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you are not trash. he is. that girl you 'were' still is in there fighting her way back to the surface. seems to me you are having a light bulb moment if anything else. you have so much to be proud of. you got yourself away from this jerk! you cared enough about yourself to set yourself free from his sickness. you aren't who he said you were. YOU ARE A STRONG WOMAN WHO LOVES HER DAUGHTER AND LOVES HERSELF SO MUCH SHE WALKED AWAY. Misty, i am going to message you my phone#. call me if you want to talk.
GiveItARest
I know how you feel in a lot of respects and when you lose a parent that you love it does change you. We were both married to very selfish people and you have to see that you are so much better off with out him in your life. Your deserve much better and if he treated you like this from the beginning then there was nothing you could do to save this. Feel sorry for his new wife and be glad he is now her problem and not your.
Wick
Again, I agree with Wick! You deserved so much more and he obviously was not the right guy for you! He is a poor excuse for a human being and you know that first hand. You are better off without him and you are not a piece of trash. You are a strong, smart, caring person, who treats everyone with respect and you deserved that same respect.
lovesuks
Thank you everyone- My head tells me the same things I do deserve better- my heart just hurts-Maybe i am supposed to meet someone who truly loves me and appreciates what a loving, giving person I am.Someone who loves me for me and not for appearences- marriage is supposed to be spiritual- mine wasn't.I feel like I have slid back so far with this meltdown-I need to make some changes in my life- get back on course- I can't keep working these hours I have to figure something else out.I think that is going to be a changing point-other wise I will never move forward.
mistyj