Journal Entry for October 22, 2009
October 22, 2009 11:34am
It's my birthday today, another year as come & gone. I'm 26 now & still in korea til next year around june. this weekend I plan on …
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Aida2000 
8:29am, June 4, 2009
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About Me
Aida2000
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About Me
I'm a newly wed, My Husband is in the U.S. Army. I like to hang out with friends, goof off, watch old Black & white films, & I enjoy going for walks. Music, Movies, & History is my passion in life, & I hope I can become either an historian or a film director after I go to Collage.
I'm a newly wed, My Husband is in the U.S. Army. I like to hang out with friends, goof off, watch old Black & white films, & I enjoy going for walks. Music, Movies, & History is my passion in life, & I hope I can become either an historian or a film director after I go to Collage.
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Interests
Computers games, movies, art, jigsaw puzzles, books of all kinds, cooking, B/W movies & photographs, swiming. Mermaids, Fairys, Vampires, devils, and anime
Computers games, movies, art, jigsaw puzzles, books of all kinds, cooking, B/W movies & photographs,
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Screaming in my head.
August 24, 2009 4:48pm
I want to scream!!!!! my Apt is infested with roaches,centerpeds & other vermin!!. I can't sleep at night, in fact it's been days …
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what's going on.
August 13, 2009 12:09pm
Going to another Army marrage retreat in Seoul next week. I won't pass up free room & food haha!. anyway not much else going on, hope all is …
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Journal Entry for August 5, 2009
August 5, 2009 3:18pm
been drinking my favorite wine tonight & ate a ton & then thew it up. i feel depressed but also numb too. lost my job on post here, & …
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Journal Entry for June 4, 2009
June 4, 2009 8:43am
Haven't been feeling well lately, nauseous most days & been tasting sour milk in my mouth when i'm not eating or drinking. my husband is …
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Goal End Date is Apr 22, 08 581 days ago.improvements,weight. (pound)157 -
Support Groups
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Parentalmost 7 years ago my mother who was my best friend got ovarian cancer. she died of a heart attack 2 1/2 months later near christmas. even though it's been so long I still can't get over it. then in 2006 I found out ( my family didn't tell me) that my grandpa died durning a hurricane in florida.
Treatments
- Crying Considering
- I hate crying but sometimes it helps me get it out, I only cry at night or at therapy.
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- keeps me from dwelling in the past.
- Music Working / Worked
- helps me remember the good times w/ my Mom & grandparents instead of wishing I was w/ them.(suicide)
- Pets Working / Worked
- going to get one soon! i want a pug puppy but who knows what dog might need a home too.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- my therapist tells me that maybe I may never get over the loss of my loved ones but that ok.
- Reading Working / Worked
- keeps my mind away from bad thoughts.
- Remembering Not Working
- Scrapbooking Considering
- I'm thinking about it & talking w/ my therapist about whether I'm ready for it.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- I go to E.A. (Emotions Anonymous)
- Time Working / Worked
- I am learning the time does indeed heal, one day at a time.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have had clincal depression since I was 7 years old. I tried to kill myself with a butcher knife, but was found out. when I was 15 I jumped a 3 story bulding but only broke a leg. I tried killing myself 22 times since then. w/ the help of E.A. & friends I'm learning to deal w/ life, one breath at a time!
Treatments
- Cymbalta Too Soon to Tell
- right now I can't afford it.
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- worked for a year, then stoped working for me.
- Prozac Not Working
- just gave me nightmares
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- helps somtimes.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Writing Working / Worked
- helps to put my feelings on paper.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)I was told I have BPD last year and I am now trying to learn more about it. My impulses is drinking, pill poping,and shopping. I know it's not healthy but when I get stressed I can't help but feel the urge. i also see everything in only black or white(good or bad), have identity issues, & fear of being abandoned by people close to me.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked
- helps me learn more about my symtoms & how to cope w/ it.
- Talking Working / Worked
Open ADHD / ADD
i was diagnosed with add since i was 3 and been trying to deal with it ever since.
Open Anxiety
have had anxiety since my mother died in 2000.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked
- i have been in ea for a year and it keeps me alive.
Open Codependency
i always feel like I have to be with someone, whether it's with a friend or my husband or I feel like they're gone forever! I'm married to a Emotionally abusive husband who likes control. I feel like I rather be dead then end up leaving him. I have mixed up feelings about him, I love him deeply & also hate him too.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked
- Been going for a year & a half. I learned about the word codependency there for the first time.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- it helps me calm down
- Talking Working / Worked
- I like talking to people and it helps to vent it all out.
- \"Codependent No More\" Working / Worked
Open Food Allergies
i am allertic to coconut. very deadly!!!
Open Hypothyroidism
i found out i have a very low thyroid when i was 15. it's sooo hard to lose wieght and i stopped growing since 13. im 4'8" tall
Treatments
- Synthroid Working / Worked
- it works if I remember to take it, & if I can afford it.
Open Panic Attacks
i get them weekly.especally when im scared or worrying.
Open Phobia
I have extreem Entomophobia(fear of insects) since i was 6 years old, won't be near any bugs or spiders. it's so bad i fear butterflies!! i know they don't attack me but thats why it's called a phobia right? I also have been scared of lightning for as long as I can remember. i cope with that by staying inside when it storms.
Treatments
- Acceptance Too Soon to Tell
- I'm working on it with therapy.
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked
- helps me know I'm not alone in having phobias. I just wish I knew someone who also has Entomophobia.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
after my mom died i lived with my dad who i never knew before and a stepmother. they abused and beat me for a year and i still suffer from it
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
a lot of tragic things happened to me. read my page to find out.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked
- been going for a year & a half. i love it cause it helps remind me that I'm not alone & that people care.
- Music Working / Worked
- calms me down if I get panic attacks.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- If helps if I vent it out or deal w/ my feelings w/ someone professinal.
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- I let out all my emotions w/ my therapist & we talk about how to deal w/ the expierence.
Open Rape
was raped by a 64 year old man in 2004 when i was 21. and now i fear older guys from 40+. I'm doing better about not freaking out, but it's hard to trust elderly men still.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Working / Worked
- been going for a year & a half, I'm not alone.
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- learning to cope w/ it
Open Self-Injury
i sometimes cut my face and arms with razorblades if im too angry or upset.
Treatments
- Red Marker Not Working
- I want to feel the pain, not look at it.
- Rubber Bands Too Soon to Tell
- when I'm upset, it's not enough physical pain to release the emotional.
- Talking Working / Worked
- It helps to talk to someone that cares about my safety.
- Tattoos Considering
- I have one that I designed myself, a tongue ring & 4 ear piercings. I'm thinking of designing another tattoo.
Open Obesity
I'm overwieght, but my husband says I'm obese & is worried about my health. I've decided that my wieght is not an issue. I hear about unhealthy wieght a lot refering to me lately & quite frankly I'm sick of hearing about it. I rather just enjoy my life & try being happy then just constantly worrying about my wieght & becoming a "health nut".
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Physical Exercise Not Working
- I hate exercising, but i love walking most days. go figure...
Open Military Families
my husband just joined the u.s. army, august 2007
Open Homelessness
my story of my journey is WAY too long to type, so ask me about it & I'll tell you everything about my self.
