RiS's Journal

Physically I'm hanging in there. PT and OT are hard but got to keep my muscles moving.

Mentally things have been a struggle for me. This house is getting a new boiler  so my ex has been here often this week. Even though he just walked in to talk to my son he just turned my stomach. He knows I avoid him so he avoids me. Yet, why do I feal bad when he bought pizza or calazones for himself and my son and not me? He didn't offer me any pasta he bought home, asked my son, then gave it to his mommy.

This is just something I know I have to deal with as long as I stay here. I have to stay strong and not let him see that things he does bother me. I'm glad my nurse tells me to save my energy. She is right. It's just hard to ignore all the games the ex's play, but know I can do it. It's not right, but can do it! I need to leave, but when I'm ready. I have good friends that help me cope with this bullshit.