lostchild's Journal

I wrote in my journal last night at least i thought i did,instead i wrote a comment.I had to take my husband to have a biopsy done on his throat.The doctor came out to talk to me and said that he was sure that it is cancer and when the tests come back they will go from there and do what has to be done.I haven't been feeling well for a couple of months due to a sinus infection that don't seem to want to go away.I've been to the drs office twice and i still have pain in my face like its going to explode.I wake up hurting,can't blow my nose and have tried everything to open them up to no advail.I'm depressed and have been having nightmares again can't sleep for waking up every hour on the hour.I don't know what to do?I'm a person that worries about everything,me being sick and my husband might have cancer.How are we going to make i can't work under doctors orders.I have panic attacks and i'm afraid that might happen if i don't get my nerves straight.I take zanax 4 times a day but its not helping.I feel like screaming to the top of my lungs.