cm285's Journal

its been awhile since i needed some help and i need some help now.  i am anxiety and so many worries. the good news is that i got married in early june.  the bad news is that i wonder if i made a mistake.  i experience terrible depression here in the winters and when we agreed to marry, it was on the condition that we would move.  he was sposed to put his house up for sale in may. it is still not on the market.  it looks terrbile with half finished projects everywhere.  my back injury prevents me from working full time so my incomes is decreased but the medical bills come in every month.  i cant do much around the house.  i am trying to get out and hike but i am slow due to my injuries. when i go with other people, i get left behind. i waited for years to have a hiking partner and i think my new one likes my new husband a little too much.  they can keep up with each other. the plan was that i would resign from my job in mid august and we would leave here late august. notw its pushed back to late sept. or october and i am really unhappy about that.  i dont know what to do. i have terrible insomnia again. i am anxious. i am getting angry.  i really cant afford to leave her alone and i am not sure i could phsyically due it.