The same shit again
November 12, 2009 7:20am
I awoke today totally depressed and hopeless.
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PatZ
7:14am, November 13, 2009
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About Me
PatZ
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About Me
I'm a 29 year old lesbian whose lower body is partially paralyzed from having been born with spina bifida. Like many people with SB I am very short . . . only 4' 5" tall, as tall as the average 9 year old girl. I was in a PhD program but had 2 drop out because of memory loss from ECT.
I'm a 29 year old lesbian whose lower body is partially paralyzed from having been born with spina bifida. Like many people with SB I am very short . . . only 4' 5" tall, as tall as the average 9 year old girl. I was in a PhD program but had 2 drop out because of memory loss from ECT.
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Interests
Photography, travel, Eastern religions, old time mountain music
Photography, travel, Eastern religions, old time mountain music
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Recent Activity
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2 hugs received, 1 hug given
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Journal
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Journal Entry for September 15, 2007
September 15, 2007 9:38am
School has started and again I am feeling that I am essentially invisible. I am now taking my last year of classes and after this year I only have …
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Hello love, i hope you are ok, havnt heard from you in a few days! get in touch soon xx
Get Well Soon!
thinking of you too - enjoy our chats alot and miss them too - i have also been taking a few days off f DS but i don't have the flu or anything. Just trying to pay attention to other things. I hpe you get well soon and we will chat soon too. Love, mary
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Moment of Peace
Hi there!
I'm sorry I missed your IM - I wssn't feeling well yesterday so I wasn;t on. Hopefully I will catch you next time. love and hugs, Mary -
Ray of Sunshine
GOOD MORNING ANGEL AND HOW ARE YOU TODAY? XX
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That sounds so neat - I live in a small city with little to no public transportation - Life is so much slower here - and we only have one museum - the museum of history -
It must be so cool to have so much going on.
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Support Groups
Close Spina Bifida
Type: meningoceleI was born with SB and I use a power chair or KAFOs and crutches for mobility. I have very little movement in my legs although I do have some sensation.
Treatments
- Physical Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- May have helped me a little but nothing spectacular.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Without it I would be a bigger depressed mess full of self-pity and reluctant to leave my home.
Close Short Stature
I was born with spina bifida a condition that paralyzed my legs since birth and is responsible for my only being 4' 5" tall . . . as tall as the average 9 year old girl.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Has helped me accept myself as a disabled person. But it did not prevent me from getting depressed and suicidal at times.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionThe last time I was depressed it took 20 ECTs for me to get over being suicidal. I am still depressed but I'm no longer suicidal.
Treatments
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- Has reduced my suicidal thinking but left me without a memory.I had 2 drop out of my PhD program
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Despite psychotherapy I eneded up suicidal and in the hospital for ECT.
Open Paralysis
Type: Paraplegic (lower body)I am an incomplete paraplegic from spina bifida and I get around with a power chair or KAFOs and old fashioned crutches.
Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges
I'm only 4' 5" tall and am having a very hard time dealing with my loneliness and sexual frustration.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
