Journal

Wow, it's been a long time since I've been on this site. Last week, I had the absolute worst day in my life. My mom who is also my best friend passed away. I have been numb and can't believe she is gone. The pain is really starting to set in though. Now that the funeral is over, it has really hit me. God, I love her and miss her so bad. My heart is just aching knowing that I can't talk to her several times a day like we always have. I just want to tell her that I love her one more time. My dad is 93 and they have been unseperable for 65 years. It breaks my heart seeing him in this pain. I wish I could take all his pain too. I just don't know how to deal with this. Does anyone have any ideas?

In Pain...

Wow, it's been a long time since my last writing in my journal. I just want to say that I feel so fortunate to have both my parents with me. Dad is 93, mom is almost 86. She has gone thru hell these past few months battling cancer. She has been diagnosed with "Angiosarcoma" one of the most agressive skin cancers there is. It has come back twice now. She had her 2nd surgury recently and the wound was left open to see if it is going to return again. She also suffered from Lymphoma 20 years ago and breast cancer 10 years ago. She beat those like a champion! She is such a trooper....never complains. Her and my dad are my rock. Can't even imagine being without either of them. My heart goes out to all of you who have lost a parent or loved one. The pain must be unbearable at times. May God help all of you going thru pain right now.

Happy New Year To All!

 Today I want to share a story with you that I received from a friend of mine. I hope you enjoy it  because I sure did:

The Fern and the Bamboo.....

One day I decided to quit.... I quit my job, my relationship, my
spirituality.. I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have
one last talk with God.

"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of
them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from
the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from
the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again,
nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo".

He said. "In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo
seed.
But I would not quit.

In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.

He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant.

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had
spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave
it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a
challenge it could not handle."

He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have
been struggling, you have actually been growing roots. I would not quit on
the bamboo. I will never quit on you. Don't compare yourself to
others."

He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern, yet, they
both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come," God said to me. " You will rise high!"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can
help you see that God will never give up on you........

Never regret a day in your life.
Good days give you Happiness.
Bad days give you Experiences.
Both are essential to life.
Keep going...
Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Trials keep you Strong,
Sorrows keep you Human,
Failures keep you Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only God keeps You Going!



Have a great day! The Son is shining!!

God is so big He can cover the whole world with his Love and so small
He can curl up inside your heart.