Journal Entry for November 17, 2009
November 17, 2009 9:17am
sobriety (days)
631
dragonflydazd
9:37am, June 26, 2009
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About Me
dragonflydazd
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About Me
well i am an alcoholic. i am married and have two kids 21 and 18. i have been drinking since i was around 15 and progressively have been drinking more and more since then. as i write this i am now 129 days sober and still holding on. this has been the biggest challenge of my life and for my life. we own a welding/machine shop where i weld, powder coat and of course look after all the bookwork. it isn't my life's dream but as i become more clear its something i could be using to achieve my passion. i am here to talk to others who are alcoholic and to survive.
well i am an alcoholic. i am married and have two kids 21 and 18. i have been drinking since i was around 15 and progressively have been drinking more and more since then. as i write this i am now 129 days sober and still holding on. this has been the biggest challenge of my life and for my life. we own a welding/machine shop where i weld, powder coat and of course look after all the bookwork. it isn't my life's dream but as i become more clear its something i could be using to achieve my passion.
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Interests
my kids and family (#1), internet, gardening, working out, kick boxing, wood working, drawing, knitting, dragonflies, surviving each day
my kids and family (#1), internet, gardening, working out, kick boxing, wood working, drawing, knitting,
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November 17
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dragonflydazd wrote a journal entry updating 2 goals 9:17am
November 16
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dragonflydazd gave Tesla a moment of peace 8:33pm
hey, long time no see. sorry gf i just havent been here for a while. i'll have to fill you in. how are…
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dragonflydazd turned 48 12:00am
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Journal Entry for October 22, 2009
October 22, 2009 10:54am
605 days sober. omg who knew. i think back to before and my god where was i headed? down a dark, lonely road to death, that's …
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Hello there my friend. Hope all is well in your world.
I'm living life on life's terms ( most the time) Busy as hell.-
Well Done
As always who in the hell would have thought. Congrats my friend
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Flower
God god who did I get a hug from? Is that Dee. Glad your doing well who in the would have figured??? Myself keep real busy, I'm not on here much anymore myself. Started another company and real excited. Soooo are we going to catch up some time?? Very happy on your recovery, I remember the days!
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later, peace out, take care--on & on
want to talk to you about the other--great talking to ya
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Support Groups
Close Alcoholism
i drank for over 30 years to the point where i was passing out every night and having blackouts. i would start and not be able to stop and there is no such thing as just one drink. The worst has been within the past 5 -7 years and just got progressively worse each time i tried to stop.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- helped me get past the withdrawal at the beginning. dont need it now.
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- day 38 and it seems to be working. i suppose help from my dr, ativan and sleeping pills isnt totally cold turkey but i didnt do any rehab.
- Sleep Not Working
- i am not sleeping worth a shit...... now i am grumpy tired and feeling like crap
- Willpower Somewhat Helpful
- when i am not tired its fine but lately suicidal thoughts are still there and thoughts of alcohol.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionTreatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- seems to be helping. still trying to find the right dose for me. at 150mg so far and hopefully that will do it.
- Paxil Not Working
- quit taking it and that is as addictive as alcohol. i wouldnt take paxil......
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- i am trying so hard to think positive but it feels so difficult
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- without their support i would be lost
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- zoloft helped get things rolling but isnt enough
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- also finding the right dose for me. 200mg. taking with the effexor it seems to be the right combination and i feel i am on the right track. time will definitely tell.
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
i started with panic attacks and have social anxiety. it progressed to agoraphobia but with the help of my dr and meds i have things under control at this moment
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- i felt like i was dying at first. to be honest i thought everyone had this. no one talked about it and i had no idea so many on my mothers side suffered with this. the effexor is helping somewhat but i havent been on it long. i used to be on paxil which helped at the time but the withdrawal when stopping was worse than the disease. i also tried zoloft but that was not working. i see my dr monthly and increase the dosage when necessary. if you have any questions and you want info im here.
Open Eating Disorders
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