hmyers512's Journal

It's amazing to go through the experience of recovering your life after 12 years of severe constant pain. The last 3 years I've been getting better at a rate something like growing up 3 times faster than usual. It's incredible. At the end of the 12 years of pain I looked at the world like a 15 year old. All the adults were inimidating, knew more. I was inexperienced, like when I joined the navy at 19, i really felt little, then over the 4 years of my enlistment, I became like the people I was, at first, intimidated around. 

Well, 12 years of pain and brain injury symptoms made me feel like I was 15, unable to speak or participate in life around, feeling overwhelmed that everyone else was so much more 'with it'.  In 3 years, I've gone from 15 to 35, like 20 years of advancement I had before the pain. Tomorrow, my 53rd birthday, I'm playing my first solo gig, playing guitar and singing at a small beach pub near here. I couldn't have done this a year ago. My condition today still carries remnants of the damage of 12 years of pain and brain interference, but they are minute by comparsion to even last year and the year before that was worse and the year before that, i was still in the house-bound mode that 12 years of that condition, and the opioid medication that helped me survive it left me. 

No mistake, i wouldn't have survived without meds, but it would have been even nice to have had NCR 5 or 10 years earlier, then the decline simply would not have occurred. This is why i keep trying to tell people: If you're in pain from a condition NCR can help, i want to save you those horrible 2nd or 3rd 5 years. For me the last 5 years resulted in the highest amount of loss, a loss of so many things, that it will take me many years to recover from.