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nondescriptid 
Hello.
I have been avoiding journalling because thinking about how I am feeling lately just increases my anxiety. I am in a serious funk. I am feeling like there is not much about myself that I like, or am proud of. I am feeling unsatisfied with all aspects of my life. I know it is likely just my depression and anxiety talking. I am really not prepared to go back on medication so I am hoping this passes, or I develop some, much lacking, coping skills and strength. I am feeling like a weak and worthless person. Sorry to be so damn negative. It's terrible.
In terms of eating I haven't been binging. I have had one binge since the 25th of February, and it wasn't a big one. That is pretty damn good. The scale is at a managable number. Despite all that though, everything seems to be fitting tighter. It is really disheartening.
Oh wellll!!!!!! I really need some strength.
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Thanks for the comment. I'm gonna try my hardest to stay away from a lot of stuff, maybe eat prior??? I think going back on meds would be your 1st step and then starting eating healthier and exercise. Eating healthier and exercise for me, I was able to get off meds and have been good ever since but I notice when I'm not on track my depression does creep back. It' really up to you to take the 1st step and we are here to help and also make you feel more comfortable. I got depressed really bad before and after my son was born and it seemed like nothing worked until I started taking care of myself and I deserved to do that for myself and my family. If I'm not happy, no one is happy and that is really not a way to live our lives. Best of luck and here to talk anytime.
KACKY
These down times are always so tough. It is wonderful that you've avoided binging while dealing with all these negative emotions. I read an article recently that said music is really a good antidote to depression, so crank up the music!!!
womanontheverge
I think you have plenty of things about you that are super. First of all, it is just not the same on DS when you are not here. That is how big of an impact you have. Gotta be kinda special to do that.
You are sweet, smart, kind, understanding and compassionate. You are open, honest, and direct.
You have great insight. Your encouragements are thee best.
You are special and very, very precious.
And you have the most incredible avatar on site.
You know what is best concerning how much time you feel is right for you to spend on DS.
And no binging during all this ?? Awesome.
I was in a really bad place this week. When I was in the middle of it, I had little hope of things getting better, but they did.
Solutions are right around the corner.
When things get down for you, remember, this too shall pass.
Great to hear from you.
GoodGod
Oh my goodness girl i totally know that feeling of things fitting tighter...i put on my already tight pair of stretch jeans today, i could hardly button them...maybe we are just retaining water? Keep your head up! Good job not binging, i know how hard it is. Sometimes when i am depressed i write a list of everything i am thankful for...sounds corny, but it works. Also having someone to talk to like all of these great people
thickheaven