Loving an addict is the hardest thing I have ever experienced, filled with heartache, disappointment, despair.
Loving an addict is being filled with pain that could only be surpassed by the death of a child.
Many words come to mind, but one jumps out.
Anguish.
I feel as if I've aged ten years in the past few.
I'm reaching out, finding support and knowledge through the library, the internet, other addicts.
I'm learning.
And growing.
And dying a little more with each binge.
But good days come back around.
Long enough.
Long enough to remind me why I keep holding on in the dark.
The sun comes out and normalcy seems to just appear one daysuddenly, magically.
Just when you think you can't take another small breeze...
when you are completely drained and are beginning to think that the darkness has come to stay.
Out of the blue, an unexpeceted change.
The hurricanes are gone just as quickly as they appeared.
Was today a magic day?
Did a unicorn fly over the moon and sprinkle magic dust upon us?
Happy, healthy, everyting seems right.
Plans are made and hopes are rekindled.
I feel high.
We're there now.
And it feels so good.
And I'm growing, I'm working on filling my life with things that bring me joy.
And those things are what make me strong.
They build my strength.
Thank God.
I needed this.
To breath.
Please take one minute of your time to sign the petition.
We the american people have the right and responsibility to express our feelings and opinions on issues.
It's the way we change the world people.
One little thing at a time.
Do your part, or bite your lip on anything political.
I don't wanna hear it ;)
We shape this country based on the people we elect.
Next step, contact your representatives with your opinion on current issues.
Public pressure has an immense factor of what bills are passed.
Our elected officials have two very important job functions.
Their job is to serve their constitutes.
More important is the fact that they are elected to be the voice of their community.
They are there to weight the pros and cons of issues, and to vote for or against bills,...according to the voice of their constitutes .
Again, that's us.
So, enough nagging.
I know I tend to ramble on when I'm passionate bout' something =)
Thanks for listening.
I know I tend to ramble on when I'm passionate bout' something =)
Please do the right thing...
Use your vote and your voice!
Lets turn this damn country back around =)
Love,
Angel
Now anyhoo... onto the issue of the day..........
Stop Paulson's Plunder
George Bush wants taxpayers to give Treasury Secretary Henry Paulson a $700 billion blank check - $2,333 for every man, woman, and child - to bail out Wall Street for its reckless speculation and greed.
That's on top of $1.1 trillion for Bush's other recent bailouts, including A.I.G., Fannie Mae, Freddie Mac, and Bear Stearns.
The Paulson Plan is a total outrage with no restrictions,
no accountability, and no repair of the underlying problem of foreclosures on fraudulent mortgages.
Each of Bush's previous bailouts was sold as a cure for the financial crisis, but each had little effect.
The Paulson Plan achieves only one goal with certainty: stealing from the middle class to protect the rich.
The current financial crisis is the direct result of 28 years of rightwing Republican deregulation, corruption, and greed, which became fatally toxic under Bush-Cheney and the Republican Congress.
When George Bush stole the White House in 2001, President Clinton handed him a projected 10-year surplus of $5 trillion.
But Bush immediately gave $2 trillion in tax cuts to the wealthiest Americans, then wasted $1-3 trillion invading Iraq on the basis of lies. Now Bush demands Congress increase the national debt to $11 trillion.
Congress must reject Paulson's Plunder and enact a plan with these progressive principles from the Backbone Campaign:
A. The people who caused the problem or profited most should pay for it
1. Highly compensated executives total compensation should be capped or taxed heavily as a condition for being bailed out.
2. Tobin tax on all transactions in Finance, Insurance and Real Estate including currency transactions.
3. Government takes an equity stake, proportionate to the size of the bailout
4. Tax hedge fund managers' income
5. Accountability - fire executives of failed companies as done in the UK, and abrogate their severance packages.
6. Impose a five-year, 10 percent surtax on income over $1 million a year for couples and over $500,000 for single taxpayers.
B. Re-regulate to prevent this from happening again
1. Direct the Federal Reserve to intervene to prevent asset bubbles.
2. Extend reserve requirements to new security categories
3. Regulate the packaging of loans so they can be evaluated, rated, and priced rationally.
4. Regulate hedge funds and private equity funds in a way comparable to banks
C. Include Main Street in the bailout and invest in a new productive economy
1. Establish a moratorium on foreclosures, renegotiating mortgages or institute a rent-to-own plan to keep people in homes.
2. Create a major economic recovery package which puts Americans to work at decent wages, in productive jobs that add value to homes and communities.
3. Invest the taxes on speculation, executive compensation, and the surtax on the wealthy in clean energy, infrastructure, education, and health care.
http://www.democrats.com/stop-paulsons-plunder
My best childhood friend and I were brought back together again.
I poured out my heart in an email to her, and I share it with you now...
Peggi,
I truly believe that God brought us together that day, I felt such an amazing connection with you that it really blew my mind.
We've both grown and changed so much, we're in a place now where we can experience our friendship on a much deeper level than we have in the past.
As we talked that day, I could literally feel the difference between now and then.
In the past, it felt like there was a wall between us...
One which kept each other at a distance.
Walls build by lack of trust, fear of judgement,ect..
It just seemed as if our friendship was kept at a surface level back then.
Throughout the years, I've often mourned the closeness we had as girls, and wondered how we could have grown so much apart after being such close friends.
But I've learned to accept the fact that some relationships are only meant to go so far, and I thought we had hit that marker, and were just meant to move on.
How happy I am to see that I was wrong...
My heart is filled with so much joy because we've been blessed to find one another again...
In the right time, in the right place...God gives us miracles, when we're ready.
Life is a journey,and I can't tell you how ecstatic I am to be on this new path with you.
Now, with that said...
Don't ever worry about "unloading your troubles" on me.
That's what true friendship is all about...
Sharing and true openness.
Without that, we would miss out on the greatest blessings that friendship entails.
I believe that life is all about the connections we make with other souls.
We Learn lessons from each other, we find personal growth through the wisdom and support of our friendships.
We discover strength by leaning on each other.
Through loving others, we learn to be loved.
We learn to accept nothing less, because....
We learn to love ourselves...
We begin to see all the goodness we have inside of us, through the eyes of friends who love and appreciate us for who we are, flaws and all.
We stop hiding inside ourselves, we learn to let go of fear, fear of rejection and judgement.
We become free to be who we really are.
We go through the good and bad days, together.
So let it all out darlin', anytime.
Please don't ever feel the need to hold it all in.
Don't fear burdening me with your troubles...
I'm here to listen.
I'm here to help.
That is what friendship is all about, and it's truly one of my greatest joys.
So dear friend, it feels wonderful to have you back in my heart.
I agree, it was hard to let you go that day...
I felt like we could have talked on and on for days...I didn't want the conversation to end.
It felt amazing, didn't it?
I felt like I had found another soul mate, and I felt with everything inside of me, without a doubt ...
You and I are going to carry this friendship together for the rest of our lives.
Seriously girl, that conversation left me on a natural high.
God is Good, and you are a blessing in my life.
I felt so much love for you, I thought my heart would explode with happiness.
It's wonderful to have you back again!
Love Always,
Angel
Tuesday, July 1, 2008





