Licorice1977's Journal

Hi all!

I've been obsessively counting calories for as long as I can remember, and the other day I think I *may* have actually hit 1200 calories... maybe? It wasn't really my intention, but my mom made a big family dinner (it was healthy and vegetarian, but had avacadoes, olive oil, and was just plain large). I think it *may* have bumped me up to 1200 calories for the day.  Well guess what?  I hopped on the scale the next morning, like I always do, and I had lost 1.5 lbs!  It was the second time this had happened!  

Still, I went back to having my normal, restricted diet... stupid me.  Restricted so much.  It's really working against me... my "people" are convinced that I have done that whole thing for too long and wrecked my metabolism beyond repair.  Also, I'm an old lady and my body doesn't wanna take that crap anymore!  So anyway, I restricted again, and  I GAINED A POUND back :( I had even exercised for 2 hours that day.  Why can't I get it through my head that I'm too old for this and my metabolism is totally shot?  I still do it.  My skull is very thick.

Ugh. brain. please. work!  I swear I took my meds this morning!

EDIT:  In case you see that I have a new goal here, (my "Get To First Goal Weight!" goal, the goal weight is the weight that my dietitian has set for me.  It's around 135 lbs.  I'm almost there!  I have no idea when I'm going to be happy enough to move the "Get to a Healthy Weight" ticker... in technical terms I kinda *am* at a healthier weight for my height (I am female and 5'4"), but still not happy with my weight.  Darn.

Licorice