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tina4 
HEY,
YOU REALLY DON'T KNOW WHERE LIFE IS GOING TO TAKE YOU.
I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH A MISCARGE IN WHICH I HAVE BEEN GRIEVING BUT MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS DON'T REALLY THINK ITS A BIG DEAL. I WAS THREE MONTHS PREGNANT AND GOD DECIDED TO TAKE THE BABY EARLY. I KNOW THAT I SHOULD'NT QUESTION HIM BUT I FEEL ANGRY AND THEN GUILTY FOR DOUBTING HIM. I'M IN A RELATIONSHIP THAT IS COMPLICATED!!! HERE IS A SHORT VERSION :
I WAS MARRIED AND PREGNANT AT THE AGE OF SEVENTEEN. WE HAD TWO WONDERFUL CHILDREN FROM THIS MARRIAGE. THE MARRIAGE LASTED TEN YEARS THEN I FILLED FOR DIVORCE. SIX MONTHS AFTER I LEFT I JUMPED INTO A "SEXUAL THING" WITH THIS MAN AND ENDED UP PREGNANT AFTER THREE MONTHS OF KNOWING HIM. WE HAVE A 2YEAR OLD TOGETHER AND HAVE AN ON AND OFF RELATIONSHIP. MY FAMILY HATES HIM FOR HIS LACK OF RESPECT, AMBISTION AND HE IS COMPLETLY DIFFERENT FROM MY JUDGMENTLY FAMILY. I FIND MYSELF TORN BETWEEN HIM AND MY PARENTS, SISTER. WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR THREE YEARS AND IT WAS HIS BABY THAT I MISCARRIED. I HAVE LOVE, LUST AND NEED TO TAKE CARE OF HIM. BUT I ALSO HAVE I HARD TIME, REALLY HARD TIME MAKING MY OWN DECISION FOR MY SELF. I KNOW I'M A GROWN WOMEN!! THATS WHAT FRUSTRATES ME. MY SELF-CONFIDENCE IS GONE FROM MY EMOTIONAL ABUSE FROM MY MARRIAGE. I CAN LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SEE A BEAUTIFUL WOMEN WITH A CARING AND GIVING HEART BUT I'VE BEEN HELD BACK FROM STANDING ON MY OWN TWO FEET. THIS MAN LETS ME BE COMFORTBALE WITH BEING ME BUT HE LACKS IN OTHER THINGS. HOW DO I LEARN TO MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION! I'M LOST!!!
