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still looking for work and now have a totalled car from our vacation to the coast. Luck is not going that well for me. I have been ok panic attack ways lately but today it is starting to act up again. Hopefully goes away very soon

It's been a very blah day....Been feeling bad all day....feel like I have a lump in my throat and I have to burp or something. NOt sure if it's heartburn or anxiety and it's driving me nuts. I've been very irritable today too. People are just getting on my nerves. I have been trying to watch myself since I know I'm in that mood, but it's hard. My chest keeps feeling like it's getting tight and then it will start feeling better, then it gets tight again. I can't tel you how many times I've been to the ER thinking I'm having a heart attack. That only makes it worse. I keep trying to breathe and relax but with two rugrats it's a bit hard. They are going to sleep soon, so maybe that will help. I love them to death and I've been so mean today. Hopefully I will be a lot better tomorrow. Being unemployed doesn't seem to help much either.

It's been a while since my last panic attack and it was wonderful to have been so relaxed. Tonight I'm having a minor one (which is still really bad). I feel like I have something stuck in my throat and my neck and shoulders are getting so tense. Trying to relax and getting on this website helps so much!