Where is My dam Life Going?
April 2, 2009 8:01am
Everything is so messed up.The Arm was not right,awaiting new one.MNy cosmetic mold stuck at border. Son got out of jail(at first it was great) …
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About Me
I am a mom of three.I lost left arm to elbow in work accident and have now had to have my elbow amputated. times are tough. feel lost and no support....learning to adapt not easy. not comfy in own body... (and other things. life throws curve balls.. I am too exhuasted to catch more.....
I am a mom of three.I lost left arm to elbow in work accident and have now had to have my elbow amputated. times are tough. feel lost and no support....learning to adapt not easy. not comfy in own body... (and other things. life throws curve balls.. I am too exhuasted to catch more.....
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hike. camp. music.skating.plays write..swim...used too race a car. ride my motor cycle, used to mountain climb. .reads true stories. learnig to design t-shirts.crime novels. cooking writing.volunteer work and more.
hike. camp. music.skating.plays write..swim...used too race a car. ride my motor cycle, used to mountain
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look at photos.........I got my first arm
June 18, 2008 2:15pm
Learning to use an arm will take time.Its very heavy for the first of four to get.No hand yet. feels awkward trying to get into it,let alone to open …
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Meeting of great importance to me...
April 30, 2008 2:01pm
.......So many twisted events carry on in our lives at times. Tomorrow I called a meeting with Workers Safety Insurance Board,Tired of no arm ( 4yr …
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my thoughts and prayers are with you!
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thanks you too hun huggs ang
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what happen hun we been friends for a while what happen did it show me or your side the add friend thnigs? i sometime wonder on this site of the friends get detle somoehwo without out knlodedge.. huggs ang
Little Love
Aww that is nice thinking to appreciate little things in our life. I am slowly developing that kind of thinking. Well my reason to fight to live is to see my loved ones and to eat another warm meal
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Close Amputees
my boss cut part of arm off....due to surgeon error lost more. life in limbo of hell.above elbow 7 inch amp. left arm..
Treatments
- Skin Graft Not Working
- skin graft did not help. due to improper surgeon ended up having to have elbow amputated. bone cut way through skin graft.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionrecovering from molestation issues as child.. was raped had child. was a battered wife( 3 kids) now lost left arm in work accident..been dealing with this for many years and as time goes by other struggles add to it. fial straw after surving child hood. battered with, child from a rape( my oldest is) then lost my left arm .I wonder where does the light end of tunnel shine through. also affected by weather/ seasons drive my mood ...
Open Families of Prisoners
dealing with a son who seems to feel jail is place to be. tore are family apart.he is 22 and is now in jail.my youngest is upset as son wont be home for her 16th. or when I get my arm. a family vacation planned after years of hiding is ruined.seeing him behind glass, cant hold him. cant give him shite for he stupid choices. worried he'll be worse or get hurt in there.he maybe getting 3 years. I am angry. hate people saying well what did you teach him.he turned to his ex girlfriend before us.
Open Insomnia
I have had a sleep problen since age of 2. thanks to my mother and also being molested as a child. raped as an adult but also relive my arm loss. all hunt me at night. afraid to sleep.the night times scares me. I cant sleep longer then 1 hour per night. I wake in sweat or screaming fits.I cant turn my mind off. or get away from panic of the night. I have tried sleep in day time. makes me feel ill.
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- I just get more tired but images hunt me,
Open Sexual Abuse
sexual abuse started at age 2 and carried on with various sick people over years that includes rapes.counsellor raped us when doing individual treatments. kids violated by sons father and uncles...when I was 21 police charged a group in my area up to 700 charges involving 20 men over 20 yr span. sons father sat by me while I told police about my shame and issues.meanwhile him and his brothers were doing that to my older 2. oldest was 18 month son new born when it started.my world crashed .
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- even tried parents of sexual abused children.why how can they treat victims and then treat perps.shoving down our throats how these asshole felt we deserved our abuse
Open Breakups & Divorce
my husband decided my arm amp too much for him. plus he was abusive physically ..mental. emotional. financcial. he took me to the dam cleaners. cut of my life insurance. took my house. van. and tried to distroy my kids. damaged myself worth. pride. scared me for life on many aspects. then stalked me. cut of my phone.. hydro. and more
Open Eating Disorders
have had eating disorder for year. never thought it was a problem. binge and toss. complex over weight obssesive weight issue never wear shorts in public( unless in pool..rare to never go) ( some laws for that) family major weight probs. ex told me I need lippo suction at 115 pounds. now weight is at 155 and I dam well hate it. no full length mirror for me. hate body.. I am tired of this issue. .never wear suit in public either.
Open Chronic Pain
chronoc pain is my life since feb12,th 2004. phantom pains along with neuropathic pain syndromes. no meds trying to live with it. burning. tightness. fire. vice life feelings. fingers/ arm hand feels like being cut off every moment. pain always at ceiling level. weather also causes more hurting..electro shock sensations as well . hurts. drs considering surgery for pain...pass
Open Migraine Headaches
been a migrane suffer for 3 1/2 years. caused by a work injury when my head connected with the machine which took my left arm off.extremely painful to my neck. burn/sting in eyes. cant move with them. quizzey. rollercoaster tummy. dizzy/ flashes of lights.starts in eyes/ or lower neck, disruptive to my daily living
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Parentlost both my parents years ago,.. Its been a struggle to go through life without them.miss them no matter how they were as parents. father was murdered. mother died do to hospital error
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- Grief Counseling Working / Worked
- will hurt always.
