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hopeisalive 
7:48am, October 1, 2009
I am afraid. Yes I know that God does not give the spirit of fear but of sound mind. I can quote you lots of verses. The thing is I have too many bad memories. Tomorrow I go to the spine surgeon to discuss the ct scan. Last time I had surgery I was suppose to have someone spend the night with me. My hubby had a gout attack and he went to the doctor and she sent him home. He thought mom and dad was staying. They left too. My pain pump was not working. I kept pushing it nothing. The nurse finally came in and fixed it. Then I tried to call home and I was so out of it and in so much pain I could not call out. My hubby didn't know I was by myself till he came and relieved mom who was not there.
So I go to the surgeon tomorrow. Surgery is the last thing I want. However the pain is getting so bad it is unbearable they have upped my opana. I hear all these people who have been over medicated and dying and I think about the pills I put in me just to be able to make it through my day. It seems like we have to go up about every six months. What happens when we can't go up anymore. I just need my friends and prayers. My true friends. Ones who are not here to judge but here to support.
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super big comforting hugs! Gina, my family and i are keeping you all close within our hearts, and in our thoughts and prayers. :) We will be with you in spirit angel. :) we'll be holding your hand, and things are gonna be alright. :) one day, even one hour at a time. :) keep hope and faith alive. :) Love you bunches and bunches, our sweet dear wonderful guardian angel friend. :) Wishing you and your husband comfort, healing, and peace. :)
Chris1981
Heavenly Father: I just learned that our Gina, beloved Sister is going to the spinal surgeon tomorrow. I ask that You minister to her in peace, Lord. Ease her heart and cast away her fear, because as she so wisely said, fear is not of you. Let her spend this night in comfort. Let her awake tomorrow feeling confident and determined. Work Your works in the mind and skill of the surgeon. Let her CT scan show a lessening of issues. Minister to the MD who prescribes her medication to be watchful and knowledgeable, that she will not be over-prescribed pain medication. As an RN, Lord I know that a body developes a tolerance to these drugs, and that over time it takes a higher dosage to acheive the same effect. Lord if by switching to a different pain medication at a lower therapeutic dose is a possibility, then let it be so. Let Gina have ample help and comforting people around her, and put into her heart that I and so many others uplift her in prayer to You always. I ask i t in Jesus' Name, Amen
wallyw44
hugs and prayers
lujean
My sweet sweet friend,
What more can I say?
Please just know that your in my deepest Prayers daily
and I am so honored to call you friend...
Heavenly Father,
I come to you humbly today for my sister who is enduring so much.
You alone know her situation and all she endures.
I ask in your precious name to touch her with the touch only You
can give..
The touch of Love Compassion, and Healing from Your more than capable Hands..
Hold her gently Lord and keep her safe in her ordeals.
Touch her mind also Lord and let her know that she has You
and many ones who care.
Lord only You can do this, Only You have that special touch.
Please hear my Prayer for my sister this day and everyday.
In the sweet name of Jesus I pray.
Amen
Ravin714
I am in agreement with all these blessed friends for I know what fear can do to you. pls lord touch her and let her feel your presents there father. In jesus name Amen
specialistwife
Father God, Bless this sister and comfort her, give her wisdom and knowledge and strength and faith the size of a tiny mustard seed that will begin to spread through out her body and move mountains.
Lord I pray that you would send anointed doctors around her and doctors that pray and seek your face and know that you are the healer, the great physician.
Father God I pray that you would help her get off these pain meds and send natural healing and understanding and give her a taste and a craving for all the foods her body needs to give strength and to heal. Give her angels to watch over her and take this fear away and replace it with your peace and let her know how much she is loved and how you know the number of hairs on her head and you know how many tears she has cried and you know her thoughts before she thinks them.
Lord Heal your daughter!
In Jesus name amen
Tekoa
I MADE AGREEMENT WITH MY SISTERS AND BROTHER IN PRAYERS. I WILL PRAY FOR YOU TOMORROW AND I HAVE TO GO TO BED NOW, I WILL PRAY FOR YOU WHILE I AM IN BED. IT IS NOW 11:30 PM. IT IS LATE FOR ME TO BE UP. I WILL BE THINKING OF YOU TO MY FRIEND AND SISTER IN CHRIST. LOVE N HUG.
LUCI
Germaine08
Hi, I'm a friend of Chris1981. I saw he commented on this journal entry and the title caught my eye.
My husband just had spinal surgery on June 1st. I don't know exactly what you're having done, but if it's anything like what he had done, I hope it makes you feel better to know that just 5 weeks later, he is walking around and the only pain he has now is from his muscles being stiff and sore from not moving around very much.
I will be praying for you that all goes well. Trust in God, and in the surgeon's hands. I have faith that you will be OK and all will go well.
*hugs*
~Melinda
MyMiniMonk
Dear Father,
I come to you humbly asking you to please take this fear away from Gina. I ask Lord that you surround her with God fearing drs. that are Holy Spirit filled. Guide the drs hands and thoughts Lord. Be with Gina Lord and let her feel your presence and fill her with the peace that passes all understanding that only You can give. In the name of Jesus, devil I rebuke you, and rebuke means STOP IT NOW!!! Get your hands off of Gina now devil in the name of Jesus. Gina doesnt belong to you devil. She belongs to the most High God and He will never forsake her. I pray a hedge of protection around you Gina and plead the precious blood of Jesus on you. In Jesus in I pray....Amen Gina, I will continue to pray for you and Bob and please let us all know what is going on. You are sooooo loved by us. You are an angel sent to us from up above. I pray for complete healing in your body physically and emotionally in the name of Jesus...Amen
I love you dear sister....Julie
indygal
Lord, please be with Gina father God, as she goes to see her spinal surgeon today. Let the peace that passeth understanding be with her Father and help heal her pain that she is in. Satan, I rebuke in the name of Jesus, take your hands off of God's property. Lord, please be with her spinal surgeon as he prepares to see Gina and other patients today and help him to have other options other than surgery on her spine Father God. I know that you Jesus has the power to heal Lord, and please Lord heal her body both physically and emotionally Father God. I ask this in Jesus name, Amen and Amen.
browneyedgirl61
you are in my prayers. there is no nead to fear anything. as long as you know god is beside you, and as long as you know you have many loving friends praying for you...there is no need to be afraid of a thing. god is looking after you and the surgery will be a success. know this and you will see. here for you always. loveya..hxhxhx
danroy
I know how you feel, I have to go to a neurologist to see why my pain in my back is so bad, they are going to check my nerves because something wasnt right in Mri. Hope you feel better! Hugs and love
Judy
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