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KathK 
10:29pm, May 6, 2009
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About Me
KathK
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About Me
Married with 3 boys. Adopted from birth. My Dad was killed in an accident in May 07. I miss him very much. I've always hated myself and wished I was never born. I have quite a good life but I feel lonely a lot of the time. I don't really have any friends or anyone I can share a coffee and a chat with. The last two friends I had betrayed my trust after I gave them so much of my time and effort. I don't want to put myself in that position again.
Married with 3 boys. Adopted from birth. My Dad was killed in an accident in May 07. I miss him very much. I've always hated myself and wished I was never born. I have quite a good life but I feel lonely a lot of the time. I don't really have any friends or anyone I can share a coffee and a chat with. The last two friends I had betrayed my trust after I gave them so much of my time and effort. I don't want to put myself in that position again.
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I've lost interest is a lot of things. Just don't seem to have the energy anymore. I haven't even riden my horse since last year. Life is like running a marathon without knowing where the finish line is.
I've lost interest is a lot of things. Just don't seem to have the energy anymore. I haven't even riden
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I grew up in good old W A till I got married. Now over on east coast. Lived up past Bindi Bindi a bit back then. Do not miss the cold winters one bit. Did you have to go to the city for high school too?
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Hope you are OK KathK. I'm here if you need more support.Have a good day.
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Hi from one sandgroper to another am so sorry to hear about your beautiful dogs that is just so sadI know it is hard to get support for depression in Donnybrook but Even Keel have a support group in Bussleton if that is a help it is not just for people with BP or yu could also go on their webb page Even Keel Bipolar Disorder Support Association. The site is not as active as DS but the good thing is most members are from WA hope that is of help
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I am so very sorry about your poor doggies! That just is not right.If you ever need to talk I am here for you. I love all animals and when I read about your dogs it took my breath away for a second. I am just so sorry. Take care of yourself. Please. Much love. SOOOO much love to you.
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OMG i am so sorry. Dogs are just so wonderful. I feel God so truly blessed us with them. I know i have been blessed. Some how i know he is up there looking over me saying that it will be ok and he is happy. It is just so hard when you go to bed amd there not there or your waching tv and there not there. Yester day was no dout the worst day of my life!!!! that lil guy will stay with me always. If you ever need to talk i am here
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI'm getting on with life now. I've worked hard on dealing with the things that contributed to my depression, but I still battle. I just can't rid myself of the 'wish-I-was-dead' feeling.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- I just found it too hard, and felt worse for feeling like a failure.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- Took it for about 6 months before withdrawing due to memory loss and poor concentration. Went drug free for a few months, but started getting suicidal again. Back on it now.
- Hypnotherapy Not Working
- Was a disaster. Was meant to listen to a CD when going to sleep, but I couldn't sleep without ear plugs. Tried it for 2 nights and barely slept.
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- Seems to be the only thing I know to do.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Doesn't work. Almost impossible to do.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- It's fairly costly, and most people are too full to take you on. Don't have anyone to talk to these days.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I have a wonderful husband.
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentI was having the biggest battle of my life with depression when my Dad was crushed to death by a tree that my brother was cutting up. That was May 07
Treatments
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- Helps take my mind off how I feel
- Time Somewhat Helpful
- After the initial shock, I felt like I had accepted his death, but then it just comes back fresh all over again.
Open Financial Challenges
Always stuggling. Got a $5000 credit card debt that we can't get on top of. We live a very moderate lifestyle and don't drink, smoke or go out very often. Can't afford to take a holiday.
Treatments
- Budgeting Working / Worked
- When the kids were younger, we had a strict budget. Worked well and we managed to pay off our property. Stuggle to find the discipline these days.
- Earn Money Working / Worked
- Decided I need to earn more money, so I'm going to start piano tuning again. I HATE it, but we need the money. It's a mental exhausting occupation so I haven't been able to do it much in the last few years.
- Holding a Garage Sale Considering
- We're having a clean up, and hoping to sell some stuff to get a bit of money together.
Open Sexual Abuse
I found out in May this year that my son had been involved in a sexual relationship with my 'friend' who was also a teacher at his school. He was 14 when it began and it's going through court at the moment. She betrayed my family in the worst way, and my son is filled with guilty for being 'used' by her.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- As a family we have had to spend a lot of time talking about how it effects us all. She is still in the district so she still comes across our paths sometimes. Very hard to handle, but we make sure we talk lots.
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Very hard to do but essential for peace. I found myself getting really angry bitter and resentful and had to let it go. Dont want this bitch to continue to have any power over our lives.
