Journal

i hate it right now.  my son just turn 18 and he been rufusing to go to school and his dad no help well today i told him i get him his cake and and help him on his   pic id that he 18 b/c he dont know how to drive and his bipolar dont think he can handlee that. so i told him if  he dont go then i not getting it.

 then he want me to help him get his xbox acct as an adult since i had parental control on it. and i told him i wont do it if he dont go to school and he said he dont care. so i took some of the games and his microphone away and he got mad and started hitting me and scrtatching me  and his dad said get out of his room and give it to him, i tolsd he can stay home.

 what are rules education i scared he going to quit and his dad no help. his dad is a spoiled little bratt. but his son need to get all his education in or he  wont grad he only missing 3-4 credit and i trying to get nhim thru this.

 why me i cant believe his dad laying there on the couach and letting him hiot me and sctrach and calling bitches and whore and middle figure and so on things this kid never said words until he go with some kids at school saying these.

 he saiud his friends are quitting school and when tere 18 he said they not going to school. i said well that parent that dont care. why me lord. i cant handle this  i never seen a dad in my life that lets him get by with stuff like this.

i had soap in my mouth or a belt agasinst my butt.. then he said he going to kill me, said then i said find do it  i be in peace... i understands bipolar, i think he neds hsopital, he refusing his meds....

sORRY I VENTING... I STILL GOT MY PAIN AND NOW I HAVE THRHOWING UP, AND NAUSEA AND NO STOP BATHROOM. AND THEN I HAVE HOT AND COLD CHILLS. NOT SURE IF IT FROM SURGERY OR IF MIGHT BE HORMONAL.

I HATE IT B/C I TURN THE HEATER ON AND THEN OFF, THEN I CHANGE CLOTHES ON AND OFF. I HATE IT. I EATING YOUGART AND STUFF, DINKING SO SO. BUT IT COMES UP TOO. THE MILK FEELS GOOD BUT THEN I START TO BURPING AND CRAMPING.....I GO BACK TO DR THE END OF THE MONTH, I WONDER IF MAYBE THE MATERIAL THEY PUT UP ON MY GALLBLADDER  MAYBE I ALLERGIC TO IT.... I SEE PEOPLE BE SICK AND CHILLS AND THEY WERE ALLERGIC TO WHAT THEY PUT IN THE BODY...

I WISH I BE FEELING BETTER.  SOON.