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PANIC ON A PLANE
Well I got back from my trip to chicago safe, however I was unable to take the plane back home.
When I got on the plane I was calm, however that soon changed when I experienced take-off. When we took off I had a panic attack that I am surprised didn't result in a heart attack, b/c I felt like the front of the plane was coming at me and this cause my body to react with panic. I would like to make it clear that once your body experiences this it is very very difficult to calm down and relax b/c your body is now is a heighten state of fear. I also experience a short but very strong black out which only lasted a few seconds however this caused me to be extremely scared. My mind was so messed up with anxiety and panic that I could not think logically anymore. The turbulence was also something that I could not handle. The plane shaking was somewhat ok, however when the plane dropped I was panicking more than I had ever experience.
So my trip was cut short by two days b/c I took a greyhound bus back. It took two days to travel but I prefer to be on the ground. I was somewhat nervous about taking the bus b/c of the fear that I could get robbed or beated up, however for me the bus ride was the less of the two evils. I didn't experience anything negative, other than crapped legs and swolled feets. In the future I would much like to travel only by bus. Which I know that limits the places that I can visit, I can live with that.
I don't know if my friend is mad at me for not being able to stay and I hope that she will know that although my visit with her was short I enjoyed meeting her. I felted comfortable with her and she and I seemed to get along together. She took me to see a place called "Navy Pier", which I so enjoyed and I was able to purchase items to take back for me and my family. I loved "Navy Pier", b/c it was a different kind of place with shops and a stain glass muesum which I took lots of pictures.
I got to experience a taxi ride with the bullet poof glass partistion that was cool, b/c our taxis don't have that. The downtown part of chicago was very interesting to me b/c of the tall building and the unique structure design of the downtown. For me it was so awesome to look at. I am very very much intrigued by the city of chicago and I hope that I'm able to visit there again.
I did try to overcome my fear of flying, however I do now understand that this will not be a fear that I'm able to overcome. We all have our own personal limits and this is one that I will not be able to overcome. I don't see it has a failure but more as an understanding of my limits. Plus I got to see and talk with different people and I enjoyed that b/c I didn't experience any aniexty talking with strangers and that was a blessing b/c I'm shy and I now know that I can talk to strangers without being overwhelmed by that.
Thank for reading this and have yourself an awesome day, take care.
Comments
Hey GF! You're not alone in your fear of flying!I flew to Disney World once and would have just as soon stayed there instead of flying back!I'da lived with Goofy or Pluto & been much happier than flying ever again!LOL Glad your home safe.Luv Ya,Kim
KimSS
I think it is good that you accept your fear and limitation that you tried to work on it but know you can't overcome this. I have this problem with people. I get very scared and I feel the same way that it is something I may never overcome so why try to fight it. The fear is a part of me. I liked reading your journal because I could relate to it even though we dont' have the same fear we have a fear that we think is a part of us and we can't change it so we work around it. Me by not seeing people, you by taking the bus. It is good that you had a nice time. You did a good job. Blessings to you. I am glad you had a nice time.
ess
I think it is good that you accept your fear and limitation that you tried to work on it but know you can't overcome this. I have this problem with people. I get very scared and I feel the same way that it is something I may never overcome so why try to fight it. The fear is a part of me. I liked reading your journal because I could relate to it even though we dont' have the same fear we have a fear that we think is a part of us and we can't change it so we work around it. Me by not seeing people, you by taking the bus. It is good that you had a nice time. You did a good job. Blessings to you. I am glad you had a nice time.
ess
Wow. It sounds like you went through hell and back! Did my letter help you any?
DistantOrbit
i'm glad you got home safe. i am not mad that your trip was cut short. i am happy you had a nice visit. even if it was short.
amy
hopeful511
great to know you got home same. panic causes all sorts of reactions. good you are able to face your fears and keep going.
hurts
Hey there D, I'm glad that you were able to meet someone from our DS family, I look forward to look meeting you once I'm settled in Alberta. I myself love to fly though I only flew once in a plane I have flown in a chopper about a dozen times befor. I useto love flying in the choppers because of the way the pilots could maneuver the craft in many different directions. Have a good night....Dwayne
shy39
I am sorry that the flight was that hard on you. I am glad you are home safe and sound. I don't think that I would have been able to handle that long of a bus trip myself. Hope we get to see some pics. Talk to you soon. HUGS.xx
pisim64
i love flying....glad you had a good time
xxx
fanofgerard
glad you made it back safe!
inpainincanada
I am so proud of you for flying...despite your fear! You did good! I have never flown and never will! Greyhound is my means of travel.. the price is right and it's on the ground. I am glad you had a great time in Chicago... hope that made the trip all worthwhile. Hugs, Debbie
LostStranger
Hi, I also get anxiety it kicks in as soon as they seal the doors and I feel that steal air being pumped in. My Uncle is my hero flights to NY are like 5 1/2 hours non stop so he makes yhe lady fill me up with Merlot. I usually have one at the airport before boarding and then two on the flight. You will be surprised how wine relaxes you.
NYMARY