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hafowler 
4:18pm, October 23, 2009
I think this might be my first journal entry! I guess I decided I needed this one in spite of the fact that I have so many others, because I need one where I can just focus on my health issues. Nobody on my fannish and writing journals wants to hear about that crap day in and day out.
I saw my doctor (PA, actualy) today, and we started talking about focusing on my weight now that my Crohn's and anxiety/depression are under control. Which of course sent me into a manic frenzy thinking about all the cool things I'm going to do, like join WW and walk every day and blah blah blah, knowing full well I'll never be able to keep all of those going. I need to reign myself in just a little bit and focus on smaller goals.
I started tracking my food intake today (yow do I eat like shite! Not a shock, but still, seeing it all spelled out like that...). What a pain in the arse! And what is really crazy -- and indicative of my eating disorder -- is that I STILL want to eat the other half of my veggie sub that's sitting in the fridge.
I ate like, 5000 calories today, and I could STILL EAT MORE.
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Oh I have days like that, too... like a never ending desire to munch. I think journal writing helps... or maybe it just gives a place to vent when needed. Take care of you!
Mars