Journal

I've always counted on DS forums as a source of information and support, not as another Facebook/MySpace ripoff where everything goes and everybody feels free to dismiss, insult, make fun of and mock each other and generally treat each other like shit like they do everywhere else on the fucking internet. ESPECIALLY on a forum that is supposed to be for mental illness. Every day I log on to the Bipolar forum, and every day, the topics are "Hey, what's your favorite TV show" "What are your favorite sports" etc etc etc. There's a sectionr right there called "Off Topic"... but nobody uses it. The forum is useless for real information and support. So I made the mistake of saying, "Hey, let's all follow the OBVIOUS rules!" Did people say "Nah, that's not the way we do it here?" No... they mocked me, hijacked the thread acting like two year olds, and basically told me to fuck off.

Because you know, I need that today! They said if I don't like it I can stay away, well, so I shall. I'm going somewhere where I can actually get support and not have to play kiddie games. What the fuck Daily Strength? I'm sure as hell not going to post about an anxiety attack or any other serious issue in a place like that!

I did great my first week, weight loss wise. I've been sticking on plan, and I was really psyched about my success. Unfortunately, this week, I gained 1.5 lbs. I have no idea how, since I was completely on plan. The only explanation I can think of is my medication. I hadn't taken it for a week, and that was when I lost all that weight. Now I've taken it for two days, and I've gained 2 lbs?

I don't think I'm going to take it anymore. I'm concerned about my UC, of course, but... I just can't deal with this weight, either. We'll see what happens.