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Deb16 
12:39pm, October 27, 2009
Feeling great , feeling like finaly I can live with knowing what happened was wrong and that it is okay to put my feelings across to others. I am making so much more of an effort to integrate and stay there, rather than watching and standing on the sidelines. I've recognised it is okay to speak out and I don't have to stay in my small but safe environment anymore. I still feel sad at all the time I have wasted caught up in this but it motivates me to stay in the present and live for now. I am ok and so are you. I realise this is something that will always be with me, but at least now I can focus on the strength of character it has provided me with to survive. I was raped and it was wrong but it was in times gone by and I have grown. I have let go of the anger that I had turned on me and feel revitalised still sometimes uncertainty rules both my head and heart yet now I can face the fears and do it anyway!! Most importantly I understand how much easier it is to be hurt and accept what happened than the years of self abuse and blocking. I am a nice person and I can say it and know that it is true, I can accept less than perfection from myself and enjoy my moments of success and failure finally I feel fine and dandy.
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You go girl! I'm so proud of you!!! YAY! :-)
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