Journal

Today I realized that it's not all so bad after all.   I think I might be moving out of that funky place that I have been in for the last few weeks. 

My ex came to visit the girls and even though I still have mixed feelings about him (sometimes I wish he would disappear, other days I can laugh and joke with him),  we seem to be getting along better.

I hope things can stay calm for awhile.  I need the break.

Later......

I've been feeling highs and lows for the last two weeks.  Trying to find solace in reading a few Christian based divorce books I bought over a year ago.  It's a been helpful, but painful too.  I am glad that I get to go to work every day.  Keeps me distracted for part of the day, nights are hard, really, hard.