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startingover76 
8:50pm, October 7, 2008
Well. I just wrote the closure letter to the ex. Now, comes the part where I spend the rest of my life trying to pretend that we never existed as a couple. I think it would be easier to get hymotized! Today has been a peaceful day. I feel okay mentally. I want to get back to work, but I don't want to return to my old job. I am hoping to stay on leave until I get the new one. So, hopefully by the end of the month, my life will start up again. I just can't go back to the old job. Ever since I left, they have flat out lied to me, been cold, not just to me but my dad as well. I never thought i would hate this job that I have loved for so many years, but I think this was part of the deal of me coming here to start over. I had to make a complete transformation. I am certainly doing that! I am looking up, not down. It is hard. I have no money, I have a new car that I rarely get to drive, but it has to get better. It can't get worse. I think today i will smile again. I have a sense of positivity that my life is starting to make a turn for the better again.
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Nothing like starting with a clean slate. I only want you to be happy hun, if you ever need an ear to bend just give me a shout. Take care my girl.
tornup
I like the sound of this journal, keep up the good thinking. I am praying for you.
Alberta1967
You are doing the right things. Time will slowly heal your heart and allow you to move on. We have a way of only remembering the good things about our exes and dwelling on that. I know it's not good to focus on the negative, but there is a reason that they are our exes. You deserve someone better and will find them when the time is right. Continue to focus on getting yourself healthy and you will be ready when the timing is right. We are here for you. Stay strong, you can do this.
soonergal
I think the closure letter was a really good strategy to start moving on. I know how hard it is to move on and forget, Im myself trying to do it and each day I just want to get rid of the horrible memories that hunt me. Now they are not that frequent, not that horrible as the first day, eventually they will be gone.
That will happen to you too, you are no exception to that rule my dear, those memories that are eating you everyday will fade, little by little, until they are gone.
And then you will find yourself as you were before meeting him and you won't have the need to compare because he won't be there anymore, the memories will be gone!
You are doing very well! The fact that you WANT to get rid of that situation is actually what is keeping you alive and even though you feel so sad now, that sadness will disappear and will let you shine as the real and precious jewel you are!
Hold on! This ride is just starting and you will enjoy it!
With empathy and so many hugs,
your friend gaby
jewelrylover
I haven't kept in touch with you either, but I am here.
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