sassafrastea's Journal

He leaves tomorrow morning.. then he's flying back monday to rent a moving truck and leaving Tuesday for good.. and i won't be able to breath easier until he's gone for good on Tuesday..but its real close!!!

and..I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE SURE OF ANYTHING IN MY LIFE!!! i have not a single doubt in my mind that this is the right thing! i have learned so much about him in these past few weeks.. some from people who finally felt free to tell me what a arogant, self centered ass he is like his old boss i ran into last week..  he started a rumor about me in the store he worked at... he's lied to my face so many times when i stood there knowing the real truth..

for awhile during these past couple months, i was kicking myself around for being so nieve all these years... and just tolarating his crap.. but i just wasn't ready yet.. and the timing was wrong.. but things will be ok from here on out.. ive got a whole new life to look forward to... and that just makes me want to cry happy tears!! he was bad for me, i see that now.. we had a disfunctional relationship.. he took away from me my self respect, my self image, my identity, and my ability to share the love i had stored inside me..

boy i have a lot of work to do. the layers need to come off before i can reinvent myself.. but now that he'll be gone i can finally start to heal and move forward and let him take that negativity with him out the door.

just got back from having the separation agreement papers signed and notarized.. so its legal now.. just have to wait a year to be officially divorced :(  geeze.....