sassafrastea's Journal

i'm so mentally and emotionally exhausted from all this.. can't wait for it to be over ...in 4 days he leaves with his truck.. then he's flying back on the 3rd and renting a moving truck and leaving for good on the 4th..

the latest hurtful thing he's done to me was to tell a buddy of his here a lie about me.. he then told his wife who worked at the store H did, who then told the entire store.. so he started a rumor about me in this small town! i confronted him on Friday.. and he swore to me he didn't say that.. but i know he did. .and i also know hes a liar.. he lies to me left and right.. and i told him i didn't believe him... and then he sat there and cried!! it was his last resort... but i stayed strong and i said i'm sorry but you've lied to me over and over and no one would just come up with a story like that but you .. it had to start with you! i said i truly believe that you just wanted to F-me over one more time before you leave... he swore he didn't.. but i don't believe him. since we are selling the house i decided (on my own, and with my money) to replace some carpeting to make the house look better to sell.. i overheard him on the phone to his father yesterday say "yeah, i made her put down carpeting"... made me??? what a F-n liar he is.. i can't believe ive lived with him this long.. how many lies have i believed all this time?

i know its only days away.. but sometimes i just don't know how i'll survive one more day let alone 8! i seem to be tired all the time.. even if i do get sleep, i wake up tired.. so exhausted from all this.. i just want it to be over..