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November 4, 2009 7:47am
I give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Goal Completed on Jun 15, 08
RoseKyl
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About Me
RoseKyl
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About Me
I live in New England, USA. I really don't go anywhere, so being with my online friends is essential for me. I'm the kind of person who does everything wholeheartedly. I'd go out of my way to help a friend. I have no contact with my family of origin. Both of my parents are deceased. Grew up in a dysfunctional family. I was sexually abused by my brothers and my father. My Mom knew this was happening, but did nothing to stop it. I have been in a couple of abusive relationships. Moves out of desparation but with high prices. I'm currently in an emotionally abusive marriage, which I cannot get out of due to health reasons. I need this insurance. I have been depressed for a very long time. This is not likely to change.
I live in New England, USA. I really don't go anywhere, so being with my online friends is essential for me. I'm the kind of person who does everything wholeheartedly. I'd go out of my way to help a friend. I have no contact with my family of origin. Both of my parents are deceased. Grew up in a dysfunctional family. I was sexually abused by my brothers and my father. My Mom knew this was happening, but did nothing to stop it. I have been in a couple of abusive relationships. Moves out of desparation
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Interests
RuneScape, Counted Cross Stitch, Needle Point, Most arts and crafts, Reading Mystery Suspense, Songwriting and singing. Would like to learn to play piano someday.
RuneScape, Counted Cross Stitch, Needle Point, Most arts and crafts, Reading Mystery Suspense, Songwriting
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Hi Rose, hope you're OK, thinking of you. A x
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hello my rose, how ya doin, better i hope, hey on that cryin a lake thingy i bet i got ya beat, i'm pushin ocean, passed that lake stuff right up
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hello Rose sorry you are feeling bad, anything i can do to help
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Hi Rose, still thinking of you. A x
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- If I could save all the tears I have cried, I'd flood the earth and then some.
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- I just joined this online group.
Close Asthma
Type: Childhood AsthmaI have been dealing with Asthma since I was 16. 4 of my children also, have asthma.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Considering
- Inhaler Working / Worked
- I have been through a lot of Inhalers. I have developed a strange reaction to the Inhaled steriods, so am not able to take one.
- Singulair Working / Worked
Open Brain / CNS Tumors
I have known for awhile I have 2 tumors in my brain. One was a result of a childhood injury. The other's origin is unknown. I suffer from severe migraines, cluster headaches, partial paralysis of left side of face, and neurpoathy of my left arm from elbow down and hand. I have been through EEG's, MRI's and C-scans. I'm in pain most of the time and because I have children I do not take pain meds during the day, if I can help it. Need alternative suggestions to deal with pain.
Treatments
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My whole life has been about being abused in some form or another. My earliest recollection is age 5.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
- This helped me to work through what happened to me as a child.
Open Internet Addiction
My life is such a living hell that I just plain don't want to be there. I live through the internet. I love playing online games and chatting with the friends I make through the games. I want to be there more than here. My safe haven is a garden within a game I play. I can see this is out of control, but this is the only way I can have contact with friends. I worry about the effect this is having on my children, but still cannot stay offline.
Treatments
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- Reaching out to this group, but it still requires me to be online. Kind of defeats the purpose.
Open Environmental Allergies
Type of allergy: OtherI have been dealing with allergies for quite a few years. I didn't used to be so reactive, although I've been allergic to bees since I was a child. I was exposed to creosote when a chimney in an apartment I was renting, leaked and coated the floor and walls with it and ever since several environmental allergies have surfaced. My known allergies are trees, grass, ragweed, mold, dust and cats. I have tried several prescription meds to control this and weekly allergy injections.
Treatments
- Allegra Somewhat Helpful
- Doesn't relieve all my symptoms, but I'd be a lot worse without it.
- Allergy Shots Somewhat Helpful
- I stopped this treatment for a few months and found my symptoms were more severe without the shots. I have since resumed this treatment.
- Clarinex Not Working
- I tried this and found it not to be helpful for me.
- Patanol Somewhat Helpful
- Made me eyes feel better, but was short lived.
- Rhinocort AQ Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes causes nose bleeds, so cannot take it all the time.
- Singulair Somewhat Helpful
- Mostly used to help with Asthma.
- Zyrtec Not Working
- Tried, but still was symptomatic.
Open Migraine Headaches
I have been dealing with Migraines since I was 16. I have tried many prescription medinces, but found none that work all the time.
Treatments
- Caffeine Working / Worked
- I drink a pepsi, when I'm out without my Maxalt. It only works if I catch it just as I begin to feel like a migraine is beginning.
- Imitrex Not Working
- Did not work for me.
- Inderal Not Working
- Lowered my blood pressure to a dangerous level.
- Maxalt Working / Worked
- Works a good percentage of the time.
- Tylenol Not Working
- Barely noticed any difference in pain.
