Journal

I haven't been writing much at all, i just havent had to much to say.

I am having my ups and downs, but when i am having a good day, or hour, or minute i enjoy it.

so whats new....

I finished my assesment appointments with my therapists at the abuse clinic (to deal with what my brother did to me) on Aug 4th. At the last appointment i told them about my eating disorder. They said they will call us within 2 or 3 weeks, they have a team of people and they want to discus and decide on what my treatment plan will be. At my last appointment when i mentioned my eating disorder they told me that they dont deal with eds so i am hoping that they will help me with what they can and refer me to someone else to get help for my ed, i feel i really need professional help, i have tryed recoverying on my own and it is very very difficult, but i will not give up.

Also i am going in for jaw surgery on Aug 31st... just around the corner. I am very anxious but also excited. I have never had surgery done and i havent been in a hospital over night. I am trying my best to keep my chin up. I want to do my best to go into surgery with a positive attitude. I am very scared but i will make it threw this, my surgeon alone does 6 or 7 surgerys a week, he knows what he is doing,*note to self -I will be fine.

Besides that not much is new. I am going to try to go back to school this year. I am going to go to the doctors on wensday to get a note to bring into the school so i can start with half days. Kinda anxious about the doctors appt to but i dont feel like explaining that right now. Im also looking forward to getting back to dance. I do not know when i will be going back to school and dance, it depends on how quickly i recover from my surgery.

Sorry i havent been around much, i hope you all understand.

I hope this entry finds you all doing well.

and i also hope i can catch up with you all soon.

Much love :)