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LanaG 
12:06am, July 27, 2009
The Pit
Sadness permeates my soul
It fills every part of my body
I feel the pit in my stomach
As reality roars in my ear
I cannot bear the truth
I hide from it
Under the covers in my bed
In the busy-ness of my work
But the truth is relentless
The absence of her presence
Fills my soul with pain
I miss her smile and her laughter
Her presence follows me everywhere
And the emptiness of reality fills the air.
Comments
We will always feel the pain of their absences, even knowing they follow us everywhere. Hugging you tight, Teri
RememberKala
I try to remind myself that there is only a thin veil separating me from my son. He is there and very close to me at times. If I speak to him, he hears. I view death so differently because of different experiences I've had with Jim. Be open to this, it is real, it is true.
Teri helped me to trust in this reality.
BELIEVE
Sus
Soosanah
I re-read what you wrote and you did say, 'her presence follows me everywhere and the emptiness of this reality fills the air." SO you do believe. She is perhaps more present than in life.
(I just woke up and no coffee yet!)
Sus
Soosanah
I know, believe me, I do! I feel your sadness in the words you wrote, I wish there was something I could say to help you to feel better,...other than, know she loves you and is with you, even though you don't see her. Love never dies! Love & hugs, Judy
JudyWI
Teri has also helped me trust......Lots of hugs and prayers.....
tomtom
i am in a mood today with all this loss, it just stinks, i want to use another word, but wont, take care my friend, love, donna
misshimsooo
Your poem sums it up....nothing more to say.
AstridW
Hugging you tight and sending love and prayers for peace...Lynn
l8gra
How true - that the sadness permeates our soul. But we must learn to live with it. Thanks for sharing. Love and hugs, Julia
JulsMarie
Lana,
You know how I feel -- I miss having my son around. Cute furry animals just do not make up for the loss. Why do I have to explain to people that I MISS my son. If he had moved away to the other side of the world I'd STILL miss him. Why must I not because he died? That thought just does not make any sense to me what-so-ever.
prayersplease
Lana, thank you for sharing this. Like you said, sadness permeates my soul. I was just thinking today about how I will never have a truly happy day again for the rest of my life. For every happy moment, I will think of my son. I am getting to know the "new" me, the one who doesn't smile like I used to, who is quiet and reflective. Love to you, Belinda
BinkyH
Saddness permeates my soul. Oh Lana, what 4 words could describe us any better than those 4. My God above, I try so hard not to just fall on my knees and ask why why why. I know that it is not right to question God, and I know I deserve no better than anyone else. You understand. only the ones of us that have had to go through it can truely understand those words. How I wish we did not understand. Your words are beaty from your sad soul,Love Peggy
grndmudder
a gut wrenching sentiment that defines all of us without our child...profound meaning...heartfelt. thank you for sharing this with us. Love and peace. Dale...Brandon's Mom
Kingsdaughter