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LindaJean 
1:30am, October 1, 2009
When I bring groceries/bags home Heinze and Milie
would always put their noses into each and every
bag to see what kind of goodies there may be in there.
Millie still does that - she puts her nose into each bag to sniff - one by one by one.
When I took the Easter toys/chocolate/stuff out of the bags for tomorrow's Easter Day festivities -
Millie was right there watching intently and
looking pretty darned excited.
She had to sniff everything and was right behind me every step of the way - literally - wagging her tail the whole time as if to say "What are we going to do now, mom?"
She loved it and so did I. I'm finding my niche with Millie - or maybe she's finding her niche with me. When she makes me laugh - she
clearly loves it - she wags her tail like crazy and almost hugs me.
And something else is interesting - she has taken on the role of protector of the house and me. Even people that have been here several times are suspicious to Millie now - and she barks at them wildly - before she calms down.
That used to be Heinze's job - not the wildly barking part however - but he was very protective - she has moved into that place.
Millie is not Heinze and she cannot replace Heinze - that's good. Only Heinze was Heinze. But in Millie's own way she is becoming just as special
to me on a whole different level - not a better level - just different. Animals are amazing - they add so much to our lives.
Millie knows how to "catch" - "sit", "stay" (almost) - next we're going to learn how to ride in the car. She didn't like that when I brought her home or when I took her to the vet - and she weighs about 75 lbs. by now so lifting her in, when she doesn't want to get in, is not an option. This is not going to be simple - but a little liverwurst can do wonders.
Milie also loves to fetch - I don't get what the fascination is - but what the heck - she'll do that for hours. So she gets her exercise without taking long, long walks. I enjoyed my walks with Heinze - I would probably not have seen as much of this little area without him - but I didn't always want to go out and Heinze had no interest in fetching - he apparently didn't get what the fascination was either. This gives me more flexability while making sure Milie gets her needed exercise.
All in all - I do miss Heinze very much - he was such a good boy.
I didn't realize how much I was still grieving until I told my sister yesterday that he was gone - it does get easier - this Iknow.
Thank you so much for helping me through this - this could have taken me out for quite awhile - I don't get over these things easily.
And i need my wits about me right now
concerning a few issues. I could not have walked through this, accepting it so quickly
without you.
You know - human beings are pretty amazing too.
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no it doesn't get easier. the passing of anything close or special to anyone, is a difficult time for them to handle. the grief we feel is human emotion to the sadness we feel to the passing of something so precious to us.
Animals are wonderful creatures, they are splendid and try to help make everyday of our lives worth living, and as we know, in their eyes, we are the object of the world, we are the world, and we have conqured it.
Millie wont be able to replace Heinze like you said, but she will be able to help you write a new chapter in your life. as a new character, with new plots, twists and turns, and suprises.
there is no doubt in my mind that animal lovers and care givers of them, love their animal, because that doesn't explain the grief they feel afterwards. so i applaud you LJ for allowing them to give you something, and in return you give them something back.
The relationship between animal and lover (dog and owner) (cat and slave lol) is that no matter what they never betray us, no knife in the back, no rumor behind us, nothing. they only give us love, and a sanctuary in which we can give them love.
the passing never gets easier for anyone, but it serves a time for us to celeberate the lives in which we watched blossom. from the time they first came home, to the first, sign of them accepting you as a family member, and as part of your life, to the good times you share (car rides, walks, bed time storys, tv time, picnics, the dog park) . . . those are the times in which we celeberate. the end of their life, is just a small part of the bigger life, they shared with us.
MoroseMary
LJ,
I am happy to read that Millie and you seem to be getting on well and that somehow she knows what to do to help you through.
scarletbegonias
Thank you - you guys- you have given me such strength - or maybe you have helped me see my strength. In any event it has certainly helped. I would not have walked through this with resolve had it not been for you.
LindaJean
From my experience, it does get easier. I still miss my cat quite a bit sometimes. I got two other cats, but they aren't her. But they are special in their own right.
I'm so glad that things are working out how they are with Millie.
Hang in there. I does get better.
ChrisAz
Please accept my apologies for not being around as much - I did think of you often, just didn't get on here as much as I would have liked except for a few check ins - our girl started vomiting a couple weeks ago, and I was so very stressed about it - she has always done so, in the three years we have had her, and I was certain it had something to do with her food. I have finally switched her food but it took a lot of time and research to find the right one. I can tell you about it if you are interested, but she has only been on it a few days so we will see. She is otherwise her normal self, happy as ever! I am so glad Millie is warming your heart - and I had no idea she was 75 lbs now! I know what you mean about the fetching - one of our dogs does, and our Bella does not like to fetch but she loves to walk! I hope she learns to enjoy the car rides!
P00hbear
Hi Linda! :) super big comforting hugs :) You have such a wonderfully gentle, and kind heart. :) Heinze was so very blessed to have you in his life, just as Millie is so very blessed. :) You're one of the most nicest people we know, and i know, Heinze will always be with you in spirit. :) That's so cute, and adorable how Millie loves greeting you when you come home from shopping. :) our Bailey and Tucker love to see us coming home too. :) We buy them some treats. :) Thank you for sharing this wonderfully heart warming journal with us. :)
Chris1981
What a lovely journal! I am glad things are coming together... Love and hugs
ClaudiaD
Ohhh lovely to hear... pets can be amazing companions. While I'm a little green extreme on my opinions of pets, I still accept they are firmly routed in our culture and I have cats of my own so can't talk (well my parents got them)
To explain briefly, cats and dogs mainly eat meat, the meat industry is a primary contributer to climate change (apparently if the science is correct) and who knows how much meat has to be processed and packaged for all our millions of cats and dogs. I think there should definately be a limit on how many you can own, it's the people with 10 cats or dogs I can't understand!
Peace
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