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LindaJean 
1:30am, October 1, 2009
I really did not give up on Heinze getting better until today - today I know beyond doubt that
my Heinze is not going to ever be well again.
I thought just maybe - I had it wrong and that he just needed a good meal and he'd come out of it.
That is not how this is.
I think what bothers me so much is that I have so much respect for Heinze and that compounds the loss. He is a gentle, brave soul. He has been so protective of me over the years and he was so happy with just a walk though the woods or along the bluffs. He required so little from me to be happy. Heinze never failed me - not once.
I am going to miss him. I just wish God would take him soon - so he can be
at peace. Vets don't come out this far and he is too big for me to lift into the car.
Tomorrow I am going to offer every vet, within 50 miles, whatever they want, monitarily. if they'll just come out here and put him out of his misery. He's not in pain - he is just having so much
trouble breathing. I've always been able to make him feel ok before and I
can't do it this time.
I guess we protected each other actually. He is my dear friend.
For God's sake - I didn't cry this much when my father died - this is really hard.
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LJ,
I hope that today Heinze will find John in that place out there that John saw. I know hard hard it is to watch another being suffer, and I know how hard it must be for you. People do love pets as much as family members because they are family members. I will be holding you in my heart today.
scarletbegonias
I can identify with your pain my friend. I know I will feel exactly the same when my Bella's time comes, and I dread it every single day as she ages. The bond we share with our special friends is absolutely unmatched, unlike any other, and can be stronger than with people, so it is understandable it would be this painful. My heart is aching just thinking of it.
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