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LindaJean 
1:30am, October 1, 2009
I'm sitting at the bottom of the stairs to the deck - this is where Heinze has decided he
is comfortable. He is drinking a little water but will not eat anything.
I keep hoping that he will suddenly pick up his head - stand up and let me know he didn't really mean it - but that is not going to happen. He is dying.
Heinze has always been so sensitive to my feelings - he knows when I'm upset and he
likes to leave the room when I am - I don't blame him.
But now - when I'm upset I think it makes him nervous so I am just here with him - letting him know I am here and staying on the computer because it calms me and I do not want him upset.
He's sound asleep right now - he is comfortable and that's the most I can ask for.
I keep praying for that white light to come and envelope him - comfort him and take him peacefully.
When my husband died - the most amazing bright, almost blinding white light was around him - he was hearing something that no one else could and he was in awe of something he was seeing. Now anyone who knew my husband knew he was in awe of no one. He was brilliant, caring and he stood his ground no matter what.
But - he was in awe of what he was seeing and hearing at that moment - the light got incredibly bright - and then he was gone. I want the same thing for Heinze.
I need to go get another blanket for Heinze - it is cold today - we're both cold.
I will be back.
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