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LindaJean 
1:30am, October 1, 2009
My Heinze is dying. He has been having little strokes or seizures.
The vet says it is sometimes hard to tell the difference - they have been coming more often and Thursday night was the worst one. He's having trouble walking and he is not eating at all today - he won't even eat liverwurst or bacon.
I am praynig so hard but hes not going to get better - he's almost 14 and in people years that's 98. I just wish there had been something I could have done to make it all better for him.
He has been on the deck today - just staring. That's what happened when my Yorkie was starting to go.
I have been through the deaths of 3 of my animals since I moved to this house and even though they did not mean the same to me as Heinze has - it was some of the most difficut times in my life. Heinze has been with me through thick and thin - he has protected me when I was in fear. He has been such a good boy.
Right now I am praying that my deceased husband will come and get Heinze to make him feel safe when he leaves here.
I just wish Heinze would eat something - but I think he knows - they know - don't you think?
This is so hard. This is going to leave a huge hole in my heart - my life - he's everywhere I look and he has been such a good boy. I just wish I could have given him more comfort and safety in his life with me.
I can't stop crying - please ignore the typos.
Please pray with me that Heinze will go peacefully and that he will find a safe home when he continues on his journey.
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Oh, LInda. My heart goes out to you. It is so difficult losing a valued friend like Heinz - and even worse under these circumstances. I am here for you.
Big hugs
ChrisAz
If There is no room in Heaven for Animals then Heaven will be a lonely place.
My Little Peach-faced Lovebird died after he was with me for 9 and Half years I though my soul would tear itself out of my chest.
Our animal companions are who we tell all to, the good and the bad and they never ever judge us.
I know it's hard to think about but maybe you should let him go now. Be with him and hold him while he journeys on
Damn I'm crying now :-(
Druid
Is there anyway to prosecute the people who hurt him?
Druid
Linda- I know how you feel. My dogs are my children. He will go peacefully and wait for you at the rainbow bridge. I would try a very bland diet. Canned pumpkin, boiled chicken, chicken broth, anything thats good & yummy but not too rich. Maybe even just canned food- my babies love this as a treat, and it might smell so good he may be enticed to eat. We used Merrick canned food- all kinds of good flavors and it is wheat and gluten free i think- so easy on the system.
I am so sorry- be strong for him and when it is time, tell him its ok for him to go- they hold on for us. Im sure your Husband will be with him at the bridge too. (((HUGS)))
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When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
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SleepingBeauty83
THank you so much you guys. If I could get them on tape Druid yes I could. But my security cameras have a way of shutting down conveniently. I used to report these things but the police did nothing - hell they did nothing when they stood there looking at a hasp lock that had been torn out of some double doors by someone who broke in - the cop literally said "how do you think they're getting in" - amazing......thanks again you guys.
LindaJean
Hey Linda, oh man, all the best to you both. Take care of yourself!
freeheeler
Did you report tha injuries to Heinze? Actually that is serious crime as well
Druid
Im so sorry, Only those who have felt the dedication of a true friend like your Heinze know the pain.
Please feel free to message me if you need a shoulder. Julia.
foxylady2
Thank you very much you guys. Yes Druid I did report the injuries to Heinze and the only thing that got into the reports were the items that were stolen - a computer and then a back-up hard drive. Not even the documents that were taken got into the report - police can't do much it seems.
LindaJean
Animals are so close and precious to us they hold a very special spot in our heart. I am so sorry for your precious Heinze is going through pain right now. I feel your sorrow and I am with you. And YES your husband is there and will guide your darling Heinze with him. I'm so sorry. Remember animals reflect their masters so all the wonderful things you see in your darling Heinze is reflecting back on you.
remembertheleaves
i am so incredibly sorry for what u are going threw rite now. i CANNOT even imagine!! and yes, i to believe that they know when its their time to go home. they are so much more intellegent then "we" could ever be.
u will certianly be in prayers as well as ur precious Heinzy. I can totally picture ur husband coming down from heaven and scrooping him up! i think u should hold on to that thot.
they truely are our "Best Friends" no matter what, arent they?
and theres not one doubt in my mind that (by u) adopting him, that u have given him just as much if not more joy in his life then what he has given u. i pray for the 2 of u. God bless~~~
septfreedom07
Dear Linda Jean,
You can give Heinze the one thing that he really needs right now, your company.
Having to leave this world is never pleasant but with your friend next to you, comforting you as you pass, it is so much easier. Do not cry in front of him as he will not understand your grief to be grief. Instead hug him. hold him and let him know that he has done such a fine job in taking good care of you. Thank him for helping to prepare Millie to take his place. In short, LOVE HIM!!!
Your friend, Eric
weinere46
Thank yu - yes my husband will come for him and Eric you are right. It scares him when I cry so I can't do that. I'm just being with him - telling him he is such a good boy and he is. I haven't been a very good friend for awhile - i havent been around all that much and I'm sorry. Thank you so much for coming and sharing your thoughts - you all don't know how much this means to me - you are absolute gifts.
LindaJean
Oh Linda, your journal and these replies are making me cry! The love we receive from our furry companions is one of the most precious gifts! They love us without judgment, they know when we are sick or sad, and they follow us were ever we go.
Spend his last days with him, and show him the love he has shown you.
I know how heart breaking this is! I will be thinking of you.
srsnde
Oh my heart is breaking for you, but I am so glad someone sent the rainbow bridge to you - I believe in that, I believe our animals go to heaven and wait for us. I would say to stay by his side and comfort him and talk to him, just let him know how much you love him. I think he knows, but it will help you to tell him. If he is ready, he is not afraid, animals are so much more perceptive than people, I think, and so courageous. I understand your love for him and your pain, my heart aches reading this journal, though the blessings our furry companions bestow upon us are immeasurable. He knows he is loved and if it is his time, he will go knowing this forever.
P00hbear
My sweet friend,
Right now I am feeling your pain and can only offer an ear to listen.Please feel free to call if you would like. I am not a pet person but I do care about you. John will come for Heinze when it is the right time and I agree with you about animals knowing. All your loving friend here have offered good points but you know that only you know what is the right thing to do. Heinze is not going to judge you if you cry, he may feel like crying himself.He does know how you love him and that is the only and best thing that he has to know. 14 years with a wonderful and loving lady...he is a lucky dog. Also, you will not have to go through this alone, you are surrounded by love.
scarletbegonias
I am so sorry to hear that you are losing your friend. Sometimes a pet can be more of a friend to you then any person. How blessed he has been to have you as his mom. Maybe just imagining your husband being there and walking with him when he goes, will make it easier for you.
I am sending you hugs and holding you close to my heart...Again I am so sorry to hear of the saddness you are having to cope with...
SammySandi
I will pray for Heinze and for him to go quickly with your deceased husband to a better place so he can be free of this disease. There are words that will make you feel better but know we are here for you and wish the best for you and Heinze.
milkywayexpress
always here for you, ALWAYS . I can only imagine how you feel as i love our litte Rosie like i do my children, as scarletbegonias said, YOU ARE NEVER ALONE, love you dearly as you know and am here when you need or want. XxxxxX
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