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JeweI 
5:04pm, September 20, 2009
I fiquered I need to write in here today because I have so many people worried about me. After my last entry I realized I was in crisis again so the next morning I checked in the hospital again. They added provigil to my daily meds. It is a med used for narcolepsy. I keeps me from falling asleep all day. When I got home I went to the endo and he confirmed that I have PCOS and syndrome x. Both are insulin disorders. Which is possably another reason why I was so tired. I am now on metformin. All the sleeping was causing so much guilt in me I just wanted to end it all. I am doing much better now. I have 3 flower gardens I planted. And I am keeping up with the house work. My mood is better but not yet 100%. I am getting my Kick ass aatttitude back. I got my hair cut colored highlighted , got my pedicure going. My husband said "you have spent too much money on yourself". Instead of felling guilty a "screw you" came into my head. Who the hell does he think he is. I am tired of looking like a bum. I also bought my husband and son new clothes because they always look like bums. My husband decided not to pay the mortgage anymore and we are trying to short sale our house. We can't afford our mortgage and the things we need anymore. So He decided just not to pay it anymore. Well if we ain't paying it anymore we don't have to walk aroung looking like bums anymore.
My husband spent one evening complaining about all the gay people. I told him he needed to get over it. Gay people are people too and they should be able to put a pretty statue downtown just like anyone else. Jesus said the greatest commandment was to love God and the second is like it love people. We are all sinners in the same basket who said I had the right to put someone else down. He was just being so loud and obnoxiuos about it in a public place that I finally had to say something because he was embarrassing me. He would never do that stuff when it comes to black people but gays and mexicans are free targets to him and I hate it. I am shedding my timidity and telling him to bugger off.
I signed up to take a vet tech course today. I have also been calling the humane society trying to get an interview.
I took my son to a GI doc yesterday. They say his rectum has streached out and become weak because of the constant constipation. Thats why he can't control his bowel movements. He has to be on a laxative for a year so the rectum can repair itself.
So thats all thats going on with me. Trying to get back to my old self.
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That's so nice getting your hair done. You do seem like a different person, maybe its because they figured out your RX. Finally! better late than never. You keep taking care of your family and schooling is a great idea. Post a picture of your new hairdo. Take care lin
lin2
Glad to hear that they got your meds figured out, it sounds lke it is helping and going on a shopping trip and getting your hair done must have seemend so nice. I hope things continue to improve..
sabercat
Thats fun you got a new hair style. When were you in the hospital? I was in the hospital reccentaly myself. I woke up one morning with real sharp pain all over my stomach and was having high blood pressure problems too. I had to drink two of those nasty oral contrast so they can do a cat scan of my stomach and bowls in my instestines. They didn't use the dye since I have problems with it. They dianiosed me with having IBS and also put me on some Laxtive and Colace. Whoopie! Good luck with taking a class and trying to get that job. What is wrong with your husband not wanting to pay the mortage payment? Whats wrong with him period? He acting like a imature pig headed jerk who needs a realatity check.
Take Care, Sherilyn
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