ART is the answer to my pain
June 18, 2009 5:07am
Well I think I have found a way to help myself be happy instead of being depressed all the time so I feel I am starting to mend my broken …
Goal Completed on Jul 2, 08
Suzannaho1
8:53am, June 18, 2009
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About Me
Suzannaho1
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About Me
I like doing different crafts. My mum lives here too as she had Cancer 2 years ago but is O.K. at the moment. I did a recovery course 'cause I was sexually abused as a child (Incest)....... but didn't get all that much out of course. I had a car accident when I was 18 and almost lost my leg to infection. I was top dancer in our Ballroom Dance studio at the time so I was so terrified and had nightmares all the time for years after. Marriage seemed good but found him not too careing when our first baby (Rosemary Anne) died at birth.I had 2 miscarriages after her as well so I thought I would never get a baby to care for. We had our 4 beautiful daughters(1 at a time) after that.They were my joy for so long and HE felt negleted so he left just before 18 year aniversary. Life is better since he left but never seems to stay really good(without depression for very long) so I do the best I can. I am on an allowance as MUM's carer now that she can't walk too well or look after herself without help. My youngest daughter(rachelle) is getting married (2nd May) so lots to think about right now. Amanda (2 yrs older) will be engaged soon too so another wedding to plan.
I like doing different crafts. My mum lives here too as she had Cancer 2 years ago but is O.K. at the moment. I did a recovery course 'cause I was sexually abused as a child (Incest)....... but didn't get all that much out of course. I had a car accident when I was 18 and almost lost my leg to infection. I was top dancer in our Ballroom Dance studio at the time so I was so terrified and had nightmares all the time for years after. Marriage seemed good but found him not too careing when our first
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Interests
I am an artist I love all art & craft activities usually. I have a new puppy called Leonardo or LEO is easier to say. I love to sing as part of the worship team at church Ilove growing my own vegetables and have 5 big gardens to plant as well as fruit trees. I need to dig most of my garden again(just finished pulling out most of the weeds) and plant more vegies or we will be hungry. Ha!Ha! Fresh is best though and NO sprays(organic) is so much better. I AM helping with an ART THERAPY group that works with people who have mental illness problems and I find it very rewarding and enjoyable for me as well as them.
I am an artist I love all art & craft activities usually. I have a new puppy called Leonardo or LEO is
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Sunshine warms my heart
March 30, 2009 6:22am
Hello to my friends here at DS. I have found that I can sometimes have a little sunshine in my life even though it means I have to make a …
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where to next
August 20, 2008 4:12am
I am getting so confused with all the grief and depression I am anxious what will happen next. I have had some nightmares about suicide. …
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Thank God I am still here
August 8, 2008 6:12am
Hello to all my friends who come to visit me on this site.
I am starting to feel a bit better now but still in shock part of the time about the death …
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Trials make us stronger?
July 21, 2008 6:16am
i should be like superwomen.
get what i mean ?
i am feeing the strain of all the latest stress and stain.
but the spiritual growth …
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HI MY DEAR FRIEND HOW ARE YOU?JUST WANTED TO SEND A HUG YOUR WAY AND SAY AM THINKING OF YOU TODAY.HAVE A GREAT WEEK-END.LOTS OF LOVE AND HUGSSSS JACKIE
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HI SUZANNAHO1,HOW ARE YOU?HOPE YOUR WEEK-END IS GOING GREAT FOR YOU.JUST WANTED TO SEND A HUG YOUR WAY AND SAY AM THINKING OF YOU TODAY.TAKE CARE WITH LOTS OF LOVE AND HUGSSSS JACKIE
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yes i hope we can talk more often!=D
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI was abused for years and then blocked it out so now faced with flashbacks and nightmares. lack interest in life at present.
Treatments
- Effexor Too Soon to Tell
- Have some side effects that make sleeping difficult. Head sweats are crazy too.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Didnt help me and made me sick
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Somewhat helpful to know I am not alone with this but struggling to be happy with myself
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- Gave some relief but even on 300mg dose I am still feeling depressed and my specialist wants to put me onto something else.
Close Sexual Abuse
Well can I get through all the emotional walls in one piece and be able to tell the horror story that was my childhood? I doubt it but I'll give a brief note for you to judge for yourself. I remember the first time I was abused so clearly it could have been yesterday not 25 years ago. I only have to hear 'sexual abuse ' mentioned and it instantly replays in my head like a dvd plays on t.v.My mum was in hospital, dying or I thought so, and my Dad came to my room to teach me all about sex. Horible
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Difficult to speak out about what happened to me. Feelings are hard for me to talk about.
Open Migraine Headaches
The Effexor that my doctor put me on for depression has caused a lot of migraines. I felt like I was never going to be free of them again. It has eased off the last 2 days but I am concerned they will return as they doubled my meds again on Friday.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Too Soon to Tell
- Chocolate sometimes gives me pain later
- Magnesium Considering
- Have had trouble with low Magnesium causing other health issues so may be the cause with this too
Open Single Parenting
I have been raising my daughters on my own for 10 years now but still find some parts of life a huge struggle. They are fairly independant now they are older and I get so lonely at times. I have mum living here now so that does help a bit. trying to get servicemen that are honest and not trying to rip women off is difficult in this area.I get very depressed sometimes and think life is not worth living but .... the thought of my daughters keeps me going, My friends at church seem to hate it.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a FriendMY friend Joanne(age 25)killed herself last week.She hung herself and I am Havin trouble coping with the loss.
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- Was shocked and cried when told she was dead. Cried a lot that night.
- DailyStrength Somewhat Helpful
- Messaged friends on DS to talk about my friend hanging herself. Seems to help to get it out of my head for awhile.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Everyone at my church is praying too. It calms me to pray and also know that others are praying.
- Scrapbooking Considering
- Thinking it may help get past the grief to do cardmaking or scrapbooking.
- Talking Not Working
- I cant say the right things when trying to talk to others about upsetting things.
Open Caregivers
I have had my nephew in my care full time for 5 years now (he is 15 almost16 years of age) Now I am also carer for my mum who has had breast cancer.It is testing my health to the limit to still have my nephew but mum is great to have here.
Open Bipolar Disorder
Hello u know me from depression community
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Hated it!
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
When I go into deep depression I often think about suicide. Cutting the wrists or lots of pills.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Hard to talk to strangers about the incest and other rejection in my life
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I write when I reach the point when I cant speak to them
Open Stillbirth
My first child, daughter Rosemary Anne, was still born. We were not told what they found in the tests they did and really didn't think it made much difference to us anyway. Our daughter was dead and we could not get her back by asking more questions or making trouble for the staff. I have never really recovered from the shock of losing her. I have 4 other daughters and they are all beautiful but..... I miss my first darling little one. When depression gets bad I want to go be with her.
Open Back Pain
Just had 18 months of continuous pain after a fall in the shower while on holiday in N.S.W. Only now getting more days free of pain.
Treatments
- Bedrest Working / Worked
- While at most critical but then movement (exercise)helped ease the pain
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- Helped to ease pain enough to allow me to exercise and build up muscle strength around the lower spine area.
- Stretching Working / Worked
- Helped to get me moving each morning
