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vickied44 
I have gone from a size 12 to a skinny 6, look like shit, feel like shit, these poisons are getting the best of me, its so hard to do alone, sometimes just a hug or some one to hold your hand and say they understand would be nice, but we all know how that goes when you try to tackle something like this by your self. guess its my turn to vent and bitch, its been over a year and still not cleaned , study is making me stay on till Oct., 
I may not have any brain cells left by than but that would make my cheating husband in fla. happy, well i am just gonna go to bed and wait for a new day, its gotta be better than today
I may not have any brain cells left by than but that would make my cheating husband in fla. happy, well i am just gonna go to bed and wait for a new day, its gotta be better than today
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VENT! Its lonely, isolating, we feel like crap, no interests. We need all our energy to let the meds work, and get better. We're here for you.
ptriss
My darling Vicky, I'm so happy to hear from you, and yes do vent away, this is your personal journal, and you may vent all you want my love.
Life ain't easy on tx, especially doing it, without a care giver.
I'm sorry to hear about the split up between you and your husband.
But who knows, maybe one day post tx, you will find a man that deserves you.
I'm sorry that you are feeling so low, hun.
Is there anything I can do, I can call you if you want, just send me your phone number, and I will dial away.
My personal email is hepcwarriorwomen@yahoo.com
Ok, let's see if I can get this, you did some of the combo treatment, but was pulled off, due to slow or non responder.
Then you were put on this clinical study, to which you have to stay on as part of the contract with them?
How many weeks are you into this new study?
Even though you are so sick and losing weight like this, they won't let you quit.
Are you responding to this new study?
If so then at least it's worth it, but if you are a non respondent with them as well, well why would they push you to continue.
Now I might have some or all of it wrong, so please enlight me, when you will feel better.
I'm so happy to hear from you again.
Please consider me calling you, I often call people from DS to help or just talk as a friend.
Love & Respect,
Mckenzie
One day at the time
ps: here a major hug all the way from Canada, Sweetheart. xoxoox
Mckenzie
I know sweetie...you sounded so down last time we talked but didn't you say that your #'s were getting low like 300 - have beeen praying it would jump to 0 since we talked....you have what 5 mos left....I know that sounds like a life-time but like ya said you've come this far. I can't imagine being on tx as long as you have - you are very tough minded and determined despite the hell.
I was hoping you finally found something to eat that helped w/weight...did ya try chocolate malts, granola bars and yogurt, cereal, etc - only thing I could keep down.
I also can't imagine going thru this alone w/no one near ya hun....i'm only a call away ya know. Plus we all love ya here and I'm so glad to hear from you - this is the place to vent and i don't think you did you were just letting us know how you were.....hang in there sweetie one day you'll be past this and get your strength back and it'll be special....luv you my sweeties friend...xoxo
Ellie2009