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nanouzz 
1:24am, August 20, 2008
There is a monster who lives in my head, He talks to me softly he wants me dead.
He tells me this time I'll stay in control. He tells me not to let anyone know.
He convinces me that no one cares, He whispers the pain is to much to bear.
He tells me how wonderful I will feel. He tells me he loves me and it is real.
He tells me not to call anyone, My heart starts racing, he tells me it will be fun.
He tells me not to think of past times, He promises I can do it just once this time
Who is this monster who calls me by name, RELAPSE, he waiting to start the game.
i hope you enjoy this poem and for you who are addicts like me will understand that ,that monster never dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Nancy Roy
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hey every one well i got my one year clean(again)hoorayyyyyyyy for moi,so my life is going well ,,,i have to move n 2 weeks,,im suopse to get a 5 bedroom house but it seems like we have havng a hard time to get th poeple out of it by the 1st........my higher power is walking along with me lots latly,,,my frineds have been so good to me ,,,im so gratful i have found the rooms of N.A. i'm learnign how to live a clean life itmay sound easy for some of you but when you have been a crack baby and continued to be a addict since i was 14 i didnt know how to live a normal life what ever normal means....,i had to learn how to eat well sleep well take care of myself and while taking care of all my lil guys it's been a hard road but my worst day in reovery is still better then my best day high,,,,,,if you are a addict please write to me i want to give what i have learned so far hugzz to you all have a great day!!!!!!!!!!NANCY
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Hi Nancy congratulations and good luck. I have been thinking of all my friends here and just wanted to send some love and hugs..oxoxoxoxoxox....good.luck....love.you
hello every one today is a painful day my nepheu has passed on 16 years old from a atv accident crashed on a tree ,,,,,,,i'm glad that N.A has showed me how to deal with life on life's term i'm able to deal with tis lost ///////////no one reads my journal anywys but if some one happens t see this please write me and send me a hug i really culd use it right about now thank you
UPDATED GOALS
lose my jelly belly
Progress 20%
Encouragements: 2
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I am just one of millions and millions of faithful readers of your journal. It saddens me to hear of your loss. You are a shining example of courage and determination in the face of adversity. Sometimes our tears are needed to water the heart's garden and bloom spiritual flowers. Be assured, you have alot of devoted fans that care and support you from afar.
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thank you meemommo
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Awe, Im so sorry. You are very brave though. I know you will get through this. Just keep your head up, and focus on all of the things that make you happy in life. You have my support and I hope this will stop hurting as much as it does now, soon.
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no i havent relapse again,,,im doing geat kids are good been busy with the kids not that many ppl read this anyways ,,,,,,,,,,,oh well you are alone in a ig world thats for sure!@
nanouzz
I LOve that im gona put it on my profile if you dont mind
paigeyxo
did you write it
paigeyxo
yep i sure did
nanouzz