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HI THERE, ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS!! I EVEN CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I AM ON HERE!! LOL I HAVE MANY TIMES THOUGHT OF WRITING IN MY JOURNAL AND IT SEEMED LIKE THERE JUST WASN'T ENOUGH TIME OR I HAD ENOUGH ENERGY, OR LESS PAIN TO DO SO. WELL, I AM IN EXHAUSTED AND IN ALOT OF PAIN AS USUAL EVERYDAY BUT WHAT CAN I DO HEY??? WANTED TO TOUCH BASE WITH ALL OF YOU. I HAVE BEEN READING ALL OF YOUR MESSAGES AND JOURNALS AND LOVING ALL OF YOUR KIND WORDS AND HUGGLES!!  I HAVE BEEN QUITE BUSY THESE PAST FEW MONTHS, MY DAD MOVED INTO HIS NURSING HOME CLOSE TO OUR AREA, SO MOST DAYS I DO GO AND VISIT AND DO MANY ERRANDS FOR HIM. WHICH I DO ENJOY, AND WE HAVE SOME NICE LITTLE OUTINGS. BUT, ON WEDNESDAY SEPTEMBER 16TH, MY DAD HAS DECIDED TO MOVE BACK TO BRITISH COLUMBIA, IN CHILLIWACK. MY MOM AND MY SISTER ( THAT I DO NOT GET ALONG WITH AT ALL) AND HER DAUGHTER HAVE MOVED THERE ALSO EARLY THIS JULY. MY BROTHER DAVE HAS LIVED OUT THERE NOW FOR ABOUT 20YEARS,. SO HE IS VERY HAPPY THAT MOST OF US ARE MOVING DOWN TO B.C.  WELL, TERRY AND I HAVE NOT DECIDED TO MOVE TO B.C. RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT, ALTHOUGH WE HAVE DISCUSSED IT EVERY NOW AND THEN. THE REASON BEING THE WINTERS ARE SOOO MUCH  MORE MILDER THAN OUR FREEZING WINTERS WE GET HERE IN ALBERTA. AND OF COURSE ALL YEAR ROUND THERE ARE GREEN LAWNS AND BEAUTIFUL FLOWERS! AND NOW AS MY FAMILY IS THERE TOO! WELL, NOT ALL OF US. MY BROTHER NORM AND HIS WIFE AND KIDS ARE STILL HERE IN EDMONTON, ALBERTA AND I DON'T KNOW WHETHER THEY WOULD MOVE THERE OR NOT. THEY SURE COULD AT ANY TIME AS THEY HAVE LOADS OF MONEY AND MY BROTHER IS IN  REAL ESTATE AND HE COULD DO THAT ANYWHERE. IT IS JUST THERE TWO GIRLS WOULD HAVE TO CHANGE SCHOOLS, BUT I AM SURE THAT THEY COULD ADAPT TO THAT CHANGE IN A DIFFERENT PROVINCE. AS FOR ME WELL, MY TWO GIRLS ARE HERE AND MY GRANDCHILDREN WHICH I AM SOOO CLOSE TO AND I WOULD MOST DEFINATELY MISS UNBEARABLY!! MY DAUGHTER CRYSTAL WITH THE TWO KIDS WELL, SHE COULDN'T MOVE EVEN IF SHE WANTED TO AS THERE IS A COURT ORDER THAT SHE CAN'T MOVE OUT OF THE PROVINCE AS HER X-BOYFRIEND, THE FATHER OF HER SON AUSTIN WOULD DEFINATELY NOT APPROVE OF THAT!!! SO, HERE I AM NOW MY MOM AND DAD WILL BE OUT OF MY LIFE, FOR I COULD MAYBE GO AND SEE THEM MAYBE TWICE OR THREE TIMES A YEAR IF THEY HELPED WITH MY PLANE FARE. I AM SOOO USED TO BEING WITH MY DAD AND WE HAVE GROWN SOOO CLOSE AND I CONSIDER HIM MY BUDDY THAT I AM GOING TO TRULY MISS HIM DESPERATELY! I AM STARTING TO FEEL A REAL DEPRESSION, HE WAS AND IS MY BUDDY THAT I AM USED TO VISITING AND HANGING OUT WITH MOST DAYS OF THE WEEK WHEN TERRY IS AT WORK! I KNOW I WILL BE LOST AND VERY LONELY MOST DAYS NOW, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF NOW?????? WHERE DO I BELONG?? I ALSO HAVE BEEN DOING MANY THINGS WITH CRYSTAL MY DAUGHTER LATELY IN THE PAST TWO MONTHS AS SHE WAS FINISHING HER NURSING STUDIES. WELL, SHE HAS PASSED AND WE WENT TO HER GRADUATION ON AUGUST 28TH, WE ARE ALL SOOOO PROUD OF HER!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I HAVE A DAUGHTER THAT IS A NURSE!! YAY! MY OTHER DAUGHTER SHANNON IS STILL WORKING IN THE BANK AND IS DOING VERY, VERY WELL ALSO, I AM SOOO BLESSED! CRYSTAL NOW IS LOOKING FOR WORK AND FINDING IT VERY DIFFICULT AS THERE IS A NURSING FREEZE ON RIGHT NOW AND ALSO SHE HAS TO FIND A MOSTLY DAY TIME HOURS WITH THE TWO KIDS. I HAVE TOLD HER THAT I WILL HELP WHENEVER I AM ABLE. AND TERRY ALSO HAS COMMITTED HIMSELF TO BE AT HER PLACE EVERY MORNING THAT SHE WORKS ABOUT 6:00AM TILL 7:00AM SO THAT HE CAN TAKE THE KIDS TO THE DAYCARE THAT OPENS AT 7:00 AND THEN HE WILL GO TO WORK FROM THERE!! I COULD NOT BELIEVE THAT HE WOULD COMMITT HIMSELF TO SUCH A TASK EVERY DAY OF THE WEEK AND SOMETIMES ON WEEKENDS WELL I GUESS I WOULD BE WATCHING THEM THEN. SO, AS YOU CAN SEE MY KIDS DO NEED US AROUND THEM AND I WOULD MISS THEM VERY, VERY MUCH!  BUT, I CAN'T HELP FEELING SOOO LOST AS WHEN CRYSTAL GOES TO WORK THERE WILL NOT BE ANYONE THAT I CAN BE WITH DURING THE DAYS OF THE WEEK!! IF ANYONE CAN THINK OF ANYTHING THAT CAN HELP ME WITH THESE DAYS AHEAD OF FEELING VERY ALONE, FEEL FREE TO SUGGEST. AND YES, I CAN'T WORK, AND I HAVE TRIED TO VOLUNTEER AND THEY NEED MORE OF A COMMITTEMENT WHICH I CAN'T TELL THEM EXACTLY WHICH DAYS I CAN BE THERE AND WHAT TIMES. I AM FINDING IT VERY HARD TO FIGURE OUT WHERE I WOULD BE OF USE IN THIS BIG WORLD WITH THIS SEVERE PAIN DAILY 24/7, AND EXHAUSTION THAT I NEED A NAP OR TWO EVERY DAY, AND ALSO MY IBS THAT IS UNBEARABLE ALSO!! WELL, MAYBE I JUST NEED TO TAKE CARE OF ME FOR A CHANGE????? MAYBE THAT IS WHAT I WILL DO FOR A WHILE AND THEN THERE IS ALWAYS HOUSEWORK THAT I SLOWLY DO DURING THE DAY OF WHAT I CAN DO. BUT IT IS NICE TO BE ABLE TO GO OUT FOR COFFEE WITH A FRIEND DURING THE DAY! THE FRIENDS THAT I DO HAVE WELL ONE HAS HAD A COUPLE OF STROKES AND CAN'T DRIVE AND SHE LIVES QUITE A DISTANCE FROM ME NOW AND MY OTHER FRIEND DELORES OF 34YEARS WELL SHE IS IN ANOTHER AREA OF THE CITY THAT IS HARD TO GET TO, AND SHE HAS HER HEALTH PROBLEMS ALSO, AND IS IN BED ALOT TOO, AND TRYING TO DO SOME VOLUNTEER WORK HERSELF. BUT, I MIGHT HAVE JUST ANSWERED MY OWN QUESTION WHEN I SAID I WOULD TAKE CARE OF ME FOR A CHANGE, IT IS JUST THE BIT ABOUT HAVING SOMEONE TO HAVE A COFFEE WITH OR A WALK OR A BREAK YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN, RIGHT??? ANYHOW, I AM HAVING ALOT OF PAIN RIGHT NOW AND IT IS VERY LATE SO I AM GOING TO SIGN OFF FOR NOW AND I AM ALWAYS LOOKING FORWARD TO ALL OF YOU SENDING ME MESSAGES AND I LOOK FORWARD TO READING YOUR JOURNALS ALOT AND OF COURSE GETTING ALL OF THE HUGS AND KIND WORDS TO ME!! THANKYOU ALL AGAIN SOOO VERY MUCH IF NOT FOR YOU I WOULDN'T EVEN BE HERE ON MY COMPUTER TALKING TO THE MANY FRIENDS I HAVE HERE ON DAILY STRENGTH SO IN A WAY I AM BLESSED, THANKYOU, AND BLESS ALL OF YOU! LOVE AS ALWAYS YOUR FRIEND SUE XXXXXXXOOOOOOO

HI THERE FRIENDS! I KNOW, I KNOW IT SURE HAS BEEN A WHILE FOR ME! WELL, I HAVE BEEN BUSY WITH TAKING CARE OF MY DAD AND MY HUSBAND AND ME OF COURSE! MY

DAD DID GET OUT OF THE HOSPITAL, I BELIEVE IT WAS AROUND LATE FEBRUARY. HE WAS DOING PRETTY GOOD, THEN NOW HE IS BACK INTO THE HOSPITAL! I AM THROUGHLY EXHAUSTED, AND SEEMS LIKE MORE AND MORE PAIN EVERYDAY! IT HAS ALWAYS ATTACKED MY LEGS AND ANKLES AND FEET, LET ALONE THE REST OF MY BODY! I SEEM TO BE UP FOR A WHILE WHEN I DO WAKE UP AROUND 11:00AM - 12:00NOON, AND WITHIN A COUPLE TO THREE HOURS I AM COMPLETELY EXHAUSTED! MY CHRONIC FATIGUE IS GETTING ME DOWN AND MY PAIN, SO I AM FEELING ALOT OF DEPRESSION LATELY ALSO. I AM THINKING OF SEEING MY PSYCHIATRIST THAT I HAVEN'T SEEN IN ABOUT 9MTHS. TO CHECK AND SEE IF I NEED A DIFFERENT DOSAGE OR A DIFFERENT MED OR SOMETHING??  WELL, LIKE I SAID MY DAD IS BACK INTO THE HOSPITAL AGAIN! HE WENT IN LAST MONDAY, HE WAS BECOMING VERY,, VERY TIRED AND SLEEPING ALOT LIKE ME! HE HAS NOT HAD ANY APPETITE AND SEEMED CONFUSED HERE AND THERE. SO, THE ONE DAY ON THAT MONDAY A WEEK OR SO AGO, WE WOKE HIM UP FOR SUPPER AND HE WAS COMPLETELY CONFUSED, HE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON, HE WAS MUMBLING AND NOT MAKING ANY SENSE AT ALL! ALSO, WHEN HE TRIED TO GET UP HIS LEGS WOULD GIVE UP ON HIM! SO, TERRY MY HUSBAND HAD TO CATCH HIM EVERY TIME HE TRIED TO WALK! WE GOT REALLY WORRIED SO WE TOOK HIM DIRECTLY TO THE EMERGENCY. THEY WERE VERY BUSY THERE SO THEY HAD TO KEEP HIM IN A BED IN THE EMERGENCY FOR MOST OF THE WEEK HE FINALLY GOT A ROOM ON THURSDAY, WITH THREE OTHER MALE PATIENTS WITH HIM. THEY HAVE BEEN TAKING MRI, BLOOD TESTS, THE WHOLE 9 YARDS TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE HECK HAD HAPPENED TO HIM??? WELL, STILL TODAY THEY HAVEN'T FIGURED IT OUT, HE WAS STILL QUITE CONFUSED FOR THE FEW DAYS IN THE ER AND NOW HE SEEMS TO HAVE BECOME BACK TO HIS NORMAL SELF, THANK GOD. I HAVE BEEN CLEANING HIS BEDDING AND STRAIGHTENING OUT HIS BEDROOM WHILE HE HAS BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL, AND EXPECTING HIM TO COME HOME SOON ENOUGH. BOY, WAS I MISTAKEN! I GUESS THEY AND MY DAD HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT HE CAN'T COME BACK AND LIVE WITH US AGAIN! HE IS TOO UNSTABLE ON HIS FEET AND HE EVEN HAD TALKED TO ME BEFORE HE GOT INTO THE HOSPITAL THAT HE SEEMED TO FEEL LIKE HE WAS GETTING TO BE A BURDEN ON ME. I SAID NO DAD BUT I DID THINK ABOUT IT AND I GUESS FOR HIS AND OUR SAFETY IT IS THE BEST THAT HE GO INTO A NURSING HOME. AS IT HAS BEEN VERY HARD FOR HIM TO BATH WITHOUT MY ASSISTANCE TO TAKE HIS HAND AND HELP HIM OUT AND MAKE SURE HE DOESN'T FALL ETC. I WILL DEARLY MISS HIM HERE WITH ME DURING THE DAY!! I MISS HIM ALREADY AND HE HAS ONLY BEEN GONE NOT EVEN A WEEK!! I REALLY ENJOYED HIS COMPANY AND HE ENJOYED MINE TOO. BUT I DO WANT WHAT IS BEST FOR HIM. MAYBE THAT IS WHY I HAS BEEN DEPRESSED LATELY ALSO, I MISS HIM. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET TO THE HOSPITAL MOST DAYS AND VISIT WITH HIM, BUT I DO NOT FEEL WELL AT ALL!! I DO TRY AND SEND HUGS AND LITTLE MESSAGES TO ALL OF MY DEAREST FRIENDS HERE ON DS, BUT IT IS VERY HARD FOR ME, BUT I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW THAT I AM THINKING AND PRAYING FOR YOU ALL!! I REALLY ENJOY READING AND COMMENTING ON YOUR JOURNALS AND I LOVE TO GET THOSE HUGS AND PRAYERS AND SPECIAL WORDS FROM MOST OF MY FRIENDS!! YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO ME, I THANK YOU ALL FOR THE CONTINUED FRIENDSHIP AND THOUGHTFUL WORDS TO ME!! WELL, I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU ALL KNOW THAT I AM AROUND AND DO GET TO MY COMPUTER MOST DAYS BUT NOW THERE ARE DAYS THAT I DON'T EVEN TURN IT ON ANYMORE. BUT, I AM THINKING OF YOU ALL AND PRAYING FOR YOU AS I SAID. SO, PLEASE KEEP SENDING ME MY HUGS AND KIND WORDS AND WRITING IN YOUR JOURNALS SO I KNOW HOW EVERYONE IS DOING. I WILL SIGN OFF FOR NOW AND WAIT TO HEAR SOME OF YOUR NEWS!! PRAYERS AND KIND THOUGHTS TO ALL OF YOU!! LOVE AS ALWAYS SUE (CUTESY) XXXX0000

WELL, I FINALLY HAVE A BIT OF ENERGY TO WRITE IN MY JOURNAL!! I WILL MAKE IT SHORT AS I AM TOTALLY EXHAUSTED AND VERY MUCH COGNITIVE THINKING AND WRITING AND UNDERSTANDING IS OUT THE DOOR RIGHT NOW!!! SO, PLEASE BEAR WITH ME FRIENDS!  FIRST OF ALL I DIDN'T IMAGINE HOW MUCH THIS CHRONIC FATIGUE, CAN GET ME THIS TERRIBLY BAD AND HOPELESS, AND DEPRESSED!! ABOUT A MTH. AGO MY DAD ENDED UP IN THE HOSPITAL, HE IS THERE BECAUSE OF .... WELL, SMOKING, WITH A OXYGEN TANK RIGHT BESIDE HIM!!!  USUALLY, NOW THAT HE IS LIVING WITH US MY DAD AND I GO OUT EVERYWHERE TOGETHER, AS HE HAS HIS APPT.S AND I HAVE MINE SO WE MAKE A DAY OF IT AND WE DO HAVE FUN!  ANYWAY, ABOUT 23 DAYS AGO AROUND DEC.21ST HE WAS UP BY HIMSELF AND IN THE HOUSE BY HIMSELF AND I HAD HAD TO GO TO MY APPT. SO I DIDN'T WAKE HIM AS USUAL, OR HIM ME. HE KNEW THAT I DID HAVE AN EARLY APPT. SO I JUST LET HIM SLEEP AS MUCH AS HE COULD.  I GUESS WHAT HAD HAPPENDED IS THAT HE WAS LIGHTING A CIGARRETTE WITH HIS LIGHTER, AND AT THE SAME TIME NOT TAKING OFF HIS OXYGEN HOSE FROM HIS NOSE! WELL, WE HAVE BEEN TRYING TO TELL HIM THAT THOSE TWO DO NOT MIX AND HE SAID HE USUALLY DOES TAKE IT OUT AT THE TIME AND SETS IT ASIDE. BUT, NO NOT THAT DAY, AND YES YOU CAN IMAGINE THE BLAST THAT HE HAD TO ENDURE!! HE IS VERY LUCKY TO BE ALIVE, MY DAD!!!! THANK GOD!! SO, WHEN I ARRIVED HOME THE FIRST THING I SEEN WAS MY COFFEE TABLE ON TOP OF THE COUCH AND A BIT OF A TURMOIL IN MY LIVING ROOM! ALSO THE TERRIBLE SMELL OF SOMETHING ON FIRE!! I WENT TO EACH AND EVERY ROOM CRYING OUT FOR MY DAD AND LOOKING EVERWHERE FOR HIM!! I THOUGHT MAYBE HE HAD HAD A HEARTATTACK OR SOMETHING AND THAT HE WAS LYING SOMEWHERE THAT I COULDN'T FIND HIM!! I WAS FRANTIC, SO I CALLED 911 AND TOLD THEM THE STORY AND CRIED AND ASKED WHERE IS MY DAD, WHERE IS MY DAD!!!!???? THEN THEY PUT ME ON HOLD FOR A COUPLE OF MINUTES AND ANOTHER PERSON COME ON THE PHONE AND SAID THAT HE WAS TAKEN TO THE U OF A HOSPITAL ONE OF THE BEST HERE IN EDMONTON FOR SURE!! I KEPT ASKING IS HE ALIVE?? IS HE OK?? SO THEN THEY SAID SOMEONE WOULD BE HERE AT MY HOME IN A FEW MINUTES TO LET ME KNOW WHAT THE HECK WAS GOING ON????? AND TREMBLING AT TEH SAME TIME OF COURSE AND FULL BLOWN PANIC ATTACK AND PAIN THROUGH THE ROOF BY NOW!! SO,, EVENTUALLY A R.C.M.P OFFICER SHOWED UP AND EXPLAINED IT ALL TO ME, BY THEN MY HUSBAND CAME HOME AS I PH HIM IN MY TIME OF HIGH STRESS AND WAS TRYING TO TELL HIM THAT MY DAD WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND THAT WE HAD HAD A FIRE IN THE HOUSE, HE TOOK IT AS IF OUR HOUSE WAS STILL ON FIRE!! AND HE DROVE SOOO FAST HOME THANKGOD HE MADE IT HOME OK!!!! I WAS REALLY PANICKED WELL I THINK ANYONE WOULD BE IN THAT SITUATION WOULDN'T YOU????? SO, THEN WE MADE SURE THE FIREFIGHTERS HAD ALL OF THE FIRE OUT AS OUR TWO CUSHIONS ON OUR COUCH ARE BASICALLY TOASTED AND THE CARPET IN FRONT OF WHERE MY DAD WAS SITTING AND THE BOTTOM OF THE MAIN DOOR. BUT I DIDN'T CARE I ONLY CARED IF MY DAD WAS ALL RIGHT THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERED TO ME, MY PRECIOUS LOVING DADDY!!! ANYWAY, WE ARRIVED AT THE HOSPITAL BURN UNIT AND THEY WERE BANDIGNING HIM UP AND THEY WERE WAITING FOR A ROOM TO PUT HIM INTO. I GUESS WHEN IT BLEW UP RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY DADS FACE HE WAS ON FIRE IN THE FACE AND HEAD AND NECK AND HE RAN OUTSIDE TO GET THE FIRE ON HIM TO GET OFF AND HE KEPT PUTTING HIS FACE IN THE SNOW UNTIL IT FINALLY DID GO OUT!! WHAT A NIGHTMARE FOR MY DAD, HE STILL DOESN'T KNOW HOW HE GOT THE ENERGY TO DO ALL THAT HE HAD DONE!! WE THANKED HIM FOR SAVING OUR HOUSE BUT WE WERE SO CONCERNED ABOUT HIM IT DIDN'T REALLY MATTER!!!  NOW, HE HAS STILL BEEN IN THE BURN UNIT FOR ABOUT 23 DAYS WITH NOTHING TO EAT OR DRINK!! JUST A HOSE IN HIS NOSE FOR MEDICATION. THEN TO TOP THAT OFF THEY FOUND OUT HE HAS AN OBSTRUCTION IN HIS BOWELS, AND THAT IS WHY HE CAN'T EAT ANYTHING THOUGH HIS MOUTH TO EAT OR DRINK! HE IS VERY WEAK! I AM SOOO BLESSED THAT HE MADE IT THROUGH ALL OF THIS NIGHTMARE!! AND NOW IS ON THE MEND WE ALL PRAY!! ALSO THIS XMAS SEASON IS ALWAYS A STRESSFUL TIME IN EVERYONES LIFE SO THAT JUST ADDED TO THE PRESSURE. BUT WE DID HAVE A GOOD XMAS DINNER AT MY DAUGHTERS CRYSTAL'S. THEN LATELY WHILE I WAS TRYING TO PARK FOR MY VISIT TO MY DAD I WAS IN THE LINE UP TO GO DOWN THE RAMP IN FRONT OF THE HOSPITAL TO THE UNDERGROUND PARKING WELL I HAD A LADY HAVE HER VECHILE INSTEAD OF DRIVE AND DROVE RIGHT BACK INTO MY FRONT END OF MY VAN! LIKE I NEEDED ANOTHER HEADACHE IT WAS 100% HER FAULT AND SHE AND HER INSURANCE KNOWS THAT TOO! BUT IT IS JUST THE HASSLE OF GOING THROUGH DIFFERNT CHECKS FOR A GOOD PRICE RANGE FOR THE REPAIRS AND THEN THE POLICE STATION STATEMENT, ETC. ETC. LIKE GIVE ME A BREAK ALREADY! SO, IF THAT ISN'T BAD ENOUGH MY FM PAIN IS SOOO TERRIBLY BAD RIGHT NOW!! AND MY CHRONIC FATIGUE IS WAY OUT OF WACK AND SCARING ME! FOR EXAMPLE I WAS DRIVING MY FRIEND BACK HOME TO HER PLACE FROM SEEING MY DAD AND I JUST ABOUT FELL ASLEEP DRIVING!! I HAD ASKED HER TO TALK LOUD TO ME AND I OPENED MY WINDOW AND TURNED UP THE MUSIC AND TRIED SOOO VERY HARD TO GET TO WHERE I WAS GOING AND THAT WAS NOT AN EASY TASK! THIS HAS HAPPEND TO ME TWO MORE TIMES IN THE PAST COUPLE OF MTHS!!! AND IT IS AFFECTING ME VERY VERY BAD! I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO??? I TRY AND NOT GO OUT FOR LONG OUTINGS AT ALL!! I DO NOT WANT TO KILL ANYONE OR MYSELF!! SO, I AM THINKING OF CALLING DATS BUS FOR THE DAYS THAT I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T DRIVE OR GET HOME !!! SO, LATELY I HAVE SERIOUSLY BEEN THINKING THAT I SHOULD CUT DOWN MY DRIVING ALL TOGETHER BUT DRIVE ONLY ON THE SHORT DISTANCES AND MAKE SURE I AM WIDE AWAKE WHEN I LEAVE. BUT I HAVE BEEN DOING THAT ANYWAY, IT IS WHEN I GET TO MY DESTINATION LETS. SAY IT TAKES 1/2 HRS. AND THEN SHOP OR GO AROUND TO PAY DIFFERENT BILLS AND THEN MAYBE OUT FOR A COFFEE WELL BY THEN I AM GETTING VERY TIRED, BUT ATLEAST I KNOW NOW THAT I CAN GO TO MY MOM'S AND LAY DOWN IN THIS INSTANCE. SO, CAN SOMEONE , ANYONE TELL ME HOW THERE CHRONIC FATIGUE AFFECTS THEM?? AND TO THIS DEGREE?? AND WHAT THEY DO WHEN THEY GET TIRED WHILE DRIVING?? I WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE ANY INPUT THAT YOU MAY HAVE ON THIS MATTER!!! AS I AM GETTING VERY ANXIOUS WHEN I HAVE TO DRIVE EVEN SHORT DISTANCES NOW TOO??? PLEASE, PLEASE ANYONE LET ME HEAR YOUR EXPERIECNCE IN THIS MATTER OK?? I GUESS I HAVE MADE UP FOR ALL THAT I HAVE TO SAY RIGHT NOW!  I NOW WANT TO TAKE THIS TIME AND WISH ALL OF MY DEAR AND PRECIOUS FRIENDS A VERY HAPPY AND HEALTHY NEW YEAR IN 2009!!!!! THUMBS UP! LOVE SUE XXXXXOOOOO