Journal Entry for November 3, 2009
November 3, 2009 3:12pm
I just finished writiing about the retreat I went on last week, at my blog. It was a life-changing experience, and I have felt driven to get it all …
shen 
12:38am Yesterday
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About Me
shen
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About Me
I am working through issues from my childhood to heal. The blog at my website is about my journey to conquer depression, dissociation and codependency.
I am working through issues from my childhood to heal. The blog at my website is about my journey to conquer depression, dissociation and codependency.
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Interests
Painting, writing, kids, meditation
Painting, writing, kids, meditation
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Rainbow
YES, i'm real big on the program! But it's hard to get to out here in such a rural area.
My bf & his dad took me a LOT to program & now i'm pulling on what i learned.
They both did not make it...but i think i will..and i think they're helping me :-)
Love you Shen! xo-
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P.S. Your photos are AWESOME!
They make me feel the spirit of Life.
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Little Love
Ty...i'm glad you came out and said the God-word..cuz that's what i'm comfortable with too.
WOW..we are on the same page here...i'm not alone in this!
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Flower
Thanks Shen for reading my journal.
YES, I see any time I jusge or resist something I suffer horribly.
And connecting with my Higher Power as much as I can is saving me!
Now when I first wake up I feel myself giving my heart, body, soul & mind over to my H.P. and just ask for the strength to do the will of Spirit.
Ooooh! What a relief to not be fighting myself anymore :-)
Love & Blessed Thanks giving (which is really everyday :) 
Ray of Sunshine
Hello, i wanted to ask you if you were facing this depression in your post on a story from your life this year in March? I hate the thought of you being so unhappy and unwell and not being able to reach out to anyone. I don't ask for help either when i am in a depression but i took a look at your journal from March 09 and there wasn't any big sign that you were so unhappy. I think its amazing that you were able to write anything at all as i completely shut down and don't even speak unless i have to. Sending you a huge big hug and blessings, Vee xx
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Bipolar, trust and abandonment issues, crazy parents. I think my therapy is going really well. I have a good marriage, great kids, but I still need something. I just don't know what.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Slow going but probably worth it.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- started Jan 10 2008 seems to be helping me sleep...
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- the only drug that has worked for me. Has helped for 8 years.
- Depakote Working / Worked
- I didn't have a good experience with Depakote. I wrote about my experience in my blog at: http://reunitedselves.blogspot.com/
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionJust one more thing I have going on.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- My therapist helps more than anything else.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- have taken this for 8 years. It seems to help most of the time.
Open Anxiety
may as well add this one to the list. I have a "generalized anxiety disorder" along with everything else. WOnder what they will come up with next.
Treatments
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
Open Multiple Personalities
I am still finding out who I am. The last year has been a real awakening for me.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
This is probably the group I should have joined first. It is the most obvious part of my history that leaves me not whole and full of anger and pain.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I draw and write out my pain.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- working through all the past stuff with DNMS (similar to EMDR)
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- somewhat here at DS
- CoDA Working / Worked
- Very helpful
Open Parenting Teenagers (12-18)
I've been married for 25 years. We have four "children". they are now ages 21, 19, 16 and 12.
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- Patience Working / Worked
Open Codependency
I went to my first CoDA meeting in August 2008. I am definately codependent. I have a sponsor and attend 2 to 4 meetings a week either face-2-face or online. I would higly reccomend this to anyone who has issues with their relationships with others or themselves.
Treatments
- CoDA Working / Worked
- It's a great fellowship.
- Pets Working / Worked
- I just got two puppies 6/08. Still have my old Lab, too.
- Reading Working / Worked
- There are so many good coda books. Start with Melodie Beattie.
- Talking Working / Worked
- in therapy since 5/07
- \"Codependent No More\" Working / Worked
- great eyeopening book
Open Rape
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- my therapist is the first person who I've told about some of these experiences. It's helping a lot. I finally really trust someone.
