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nanaofbailee 
10:45am Monday
Having spent time in the military, you would think that I was used to the "hurry up and wait" theory the government subscribes to. The VA is doing thier best, I suppose, but it is slow and very irritating. My financial circumstances have definitely improved, but the promise of more plays in my mind like a litany----over and over again. And I really don't need something repeating in my head-------------I am already fighting the circular demons that say other things.
I find myself angry, voicing it to all of the wrong people. I can not seem to find anyone else who understands. The Lithium tremors cause me to spill things I hold and I get angry. My grandchildren argue and fuss and I get angry. My children do normal things and I get angry. My mind wants to lash out and hurt those whom I love and my heart says something entirely different, choking off my breathing at the throat, making me runs in those damn circles again.
Does it end? I can't remember ever feeling like this before. I solation is impossible---too many people around and too many things to take care of. Besides, I tend to hurt myself if I am alone and, again, my mind and heart stop me.
Well, anyway, maybe I can get relief by writing. I hope so, I shall implode if I can't calm myself.
Can you help me?
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wow, maybe lithium isent what you need,, or maybe it is to much,, ever try lamictal,, it calmed my son down a lot,,, made him feel a lot bette,, he still makes bad choices lol but he is calmer about them lolololol,,,, I sure hope the gov hurry's up, and you will feel so much better,, it is so hard when things wont leave your mind,,, you know how we beepers are I want it now, and not a second later lol,, I am here for you, love you lots,,,hope your gov things get setteled real soon,,, (((BIG HUGS)))
Jackie19467
Maybe your lithium level isn't right. When I was on lithium I had lots of problems regulating the right dosage. If you have problems maintaining your hydration levels stable, you could have problems keeping your lithium levels stable. That could be causing your tremors and mood problems. It's something that you could look into. There's always alternatives so that you can feel better. I hope things start getting better for you. Keep in touch. Beth
lilje
Sometimes meds just aren't the right fit. At least that is how it has worked for me. I hope you get on something that helps, because it seems if a med does work, things are so much better.
And sometimes I think we all just get overwhelmed. I know I do. And then I have to back off a little and find a way to take care of myself. Although I know how hard that is when you have little ones around.
Anyway, try being gentle with yourself. You are a good person and deserve it!
Hugs
ChrisAz
You Sound To Me As Though You Too Are Simply Growing My Dear.....I Am and Always Remain Here For You!:)
It's Very Simple I Love You!!!
xxx Bry xxx
PS For The Record After All You Removed Me ....... Remember?? Well Here's To Another Chance, all you need to do is accept my offer to once again be my friend??
Bryano
I can sympathize have felt like you do, and didn't know what to do either. Did talk to the pd and she changed meds. I fortunately didn't have the shaking issue though just the mental issues. And it is horrible to have that anger stuck in there with no relief. I almost bought a punching bag to see if it would help.
nutz