bayoulady's Journal

Well friends,  I just said goodbye to my dog who we raised from a pup for the past 17 years. She was a good dog, and had some good years, but it is hard to say good bye. I feel such a loss, and the house is so empty without  The Best Dog in the Whole World--my Midnight. Greg and I got her just after we got married. And every room, every word has reminders. I have mourned many human losses, my parents, my ex, uncles and aunts, and even tragically 4 years ago, my stepson. And yet this hurts in a different way--certainly not the same as losing a  child--but yet very hard. And we had to make the decision with her--for the vets to do no more, and for putting her to sleep. A dog is so dependent ,so loyal so loving, and she was part of the family. I have mourned so much for so many that I feel like the holes inside me grow deeper. I feel so numb, so lost, and so weak. I am sure this pain will ease some, but I know it wont go away, just as none of the other losses have grown less with time...its just like the hole, the pain just fills a whole part of my soul and mind. Please pray for us. If dogs do go to heaven, I am certain, she is there.