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bayoulady 
6:03pm, April 21, 2009
Well, this is harder than I figured. My dog went everywhere in my house with me, and out in the yard with me to work on my flowers(she couldn't stay out long in the heat recently though). She followed me to bed at night, always getting her bone first, and like going to bed on her cushion was a favored ritual--she did the same thing if I took a Sunday nap. I miss my dog. It was so hard on her toward the end. I believe we did the only thing I could. Still wow, it hurts.
I seem like I am totally powerless to achieve at work. Parents are hard to reach--road construction is slowing me down, and the hideous heat. And yesterday, my IPhone wouldn't work. Its only a couple of months old.
Bayou
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Well friends, I just said goodbye to my dog who we raised from a pup for the past 17 years. She was a good dog, and had some good years, but it is hard to say good bye. I feel such a loss, and the house is so empty without The Best Dog in the Whole World--my Midnight. Greg and I got her just after we got married. And every room, every word has reminders. I have mourned many human losses, my parents, my ex, uncles and aunts, and even tragically 4 years ago, my stepson. And yet this hurts in a different way--certainly not the same as losing a child--but yet very hard. And we had to make the decision with her--for the vets to do no more, and for putting her to sleep. A dog is so dependent ,so loyal so loving, and she was part of the family. I have mourned so much for so many that I feel like the holes inside me grow deeper. I feel so numb, so lost, and so weak. I am sure this pain will ease some, but I know it wont go away, just as none of the other losses have grown less with time...its just like the hole, the pain just fills a whole part of my soul and mind. Please pray for us. If dogs do go to heaven, I am certain, she is there.
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aww, im so sorry =(
my kitten died when it was only 1 1/2 years old--it decided to try play with a train. but i can't imagine how much of a gap it would leave you in your heart after 17 years of dog love
*HUGS*
This has not been a restful week--until last night--I think I went to bed at 930 and slept till 830 this morning after several days of 4-5 hours sleep. I feel better. The eating is going ok. I am dragging a bit--but feeling more rested. I have much to do today. Feeling encouraged, and hopeful.
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it must be so hard, i am close to my dog too, it must be so hard,
love Alicexx
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